Weird Feelings

Today was my last dietician visit.  I have lost a total of 22lbs.  Which is good but I just feel like I could have done so much better.  I wrote to the biatric coordinator to see what my next step is! I believe I have to go see the surgeon again.   I have been having some really weird thoughts over the past weekend.  Maybe it is the fact it is getting closer and I haven't felt 100%.  I sat today for about an hour just thinking is this really what I want.  I guess you could say some soul searching.  I am so glad that I have this place to come to and vent my thoughts out.   I am sure my thoughts are normal about this time.  Just having so many self doubts.  Tomorrow is a new day and hopefully I will be extremely busy at work so I won't have time to think about it.

Hey Hon!  Yep! You are normal and you will have those thoughts!  And you should think about it and make sure as this is a LIFE LONG decision.  But hey, we have all been there, thought that and went thru with it and are very thankful we did!   HUGS!

Thank you!  I know it is a hard decision but with this board and everybody here it has made it so much easier.

Totally normal.  You are giving up your best friend -- food -- for a healthy life.  Keep thinking positive -- you'll get through this phase too. XXOO

Thanx, yes it has been my best friend for many years.  I have so many new friends here that it will take up my time instead. 

Anita, 22 pounds is great! Think of 22 pounds of butter.  Your thoughts are normal. I had doubts till the day of surgery. Your giving up your best friend (food) for a life of health. I still to this day, when things are going wrong have my doubts, but then I look in the mirror or tell myself I'm not on blood pressure meds anymore it was so worth it.  Good luck, Kelly

Kinda gross thinking of it as butter but good analogy.  Never want those 22lbs of butter back on this body.

Good Morning Ms Anita ~ Normal is what it is and searching the soul is a good thing.  Many folks have written down a pro/con list or a list of things that they would do if they weighed less.  That helps too.  I wish you all the best.

I am going to do the pro/con list this weekend.  I am going to have my husband do the same thing.  The fears and joys of me having surgery.  Then hopefully we can sit down and talk about them.

What your feeling is normal..that doesnt help much mind you but it is.  This is a surgery you requested more or less so you question why your doing it..what if somthing happens and I wanted this.. etc. Just ride it out and journal your feelings...remember WHY you want this.  Hows your life now and if you keep going without this surgery? Its ok... just write your feelings down youll look back as I do now and just smile. Hugs and hang in there