Appologizies to All From the Heart

Some of you old time lurkers know me and most of you newbies don't.  I went through a very difficult time about six months after my RNY. Ulcer, addiction transference with pain pills, Seven operations in 11/2 years, I could have spaced these out further and made beter choices. for myself.  I really turned my back on the program and all the wonderful people here, but most of all I let myslef down.  I am so sorry for my behaviors the pain and fear I have caused many of you. Please accept my appologizes.  Drug addictioncan makes a oerson do things they would never eeer do in a normal frame of mind. I am now seeing a great Physciatrist  and a wonderful therapist. who specializes in WLS patients.  I love her! I have gone through detox and am dealing with some legal issues I created for myself and take full responsibility for them.  I am in the process of  going to outpatient therapy and attend at least two NA meetings a week.  What a great group these people at NA are. I have turned my life over to God and in his hands I know I will be okay.   He will only give me what I can deal with.  I take things one day at a time and am following the NA program.  I love going to the NA meetings. I have done many people wrong with lies and deceit.  I am sorry.   A thousand times over i ask for your forgiveness. All of my behavior has cost me my marriage, my friends and almost my job.  Thank God I have Him waching over me now.  I have a long road of recovery ahead of me but with God's help i know I will get there. God bless to all Linda

Hi Linda-wow, you've been through soooo much.  I'm glad your on the road to recovery and have the Lord on your side as well-the ride will be much easier with him.  Rememer satin is SOOO strong my friend so keep him at bayl.  I'm praying for you and wishing you peace! L-Ronda

Linda - I am glad to hear that you have found the resources that you need. I hope that your recovery continues to go well and that you continue making positive changes to have the life you deserved. Be well.

Hi Linda~ It takes a whole lot of inner strength to post your shortcomings and weaknesses--and you will be blessed for taking this step.  Take care but let God do the worrying. ((HUG)) **SUE**

You are brave to share you story and I am glad you did. Hang in there we are all here for you.

Linda, I'm so glad to hear you are the road to recovery.  There are some here, myself included, who owe YOU an appology...There are none of us here without our demons, and this should always be a safe place to vent your fears and frustrations as well as celebrating successes.  I will keep you in my prayers. Heather

Linda- I am so glad to see you back on the boards and happy to hear you're in good hands!  Please keep us updated on your progress.  Thi****s home for me, as I too have dealt with addiction transference and am not having any luck finding a Dr or therapist to go to that is famiiar with WLS patients and that aspect of it.  I have seen two and they were clueless about gastric bypass and such.  How did you find your doctor? Good luck to you!  Lori

Loril - I would like to suggest you call Lana Boutacoff! She will be able to help you!!! 651-645-7310  She works with the ASBS, St. Paul Surgeons group, and has helped many on here as well. She is experienced in WLS.

Thank you Diamond Girl!  I will check into it!  loril

Linda....what a pleasant surprise to see you again. I have been wondering about you and have been keeping you in my prayers. I know you were really struggling to make your life better. I am so happy you have found your way. The Lord is always at our side...sometimes we just weed to be reminded of it. You have been missed dear lady!! I look forward to seeing and hearing from you once again. Sounds like you have all your ducks in a row....I am so glad!! Hugs and welcome back!!!   connie d