I SUCK

The reason I havent said much the last few days...is because I have cheated on my LD.  I feel terrible.  It feels better to let it out though.  I know they say that this is a good indicator of how you will do after surgery...so I am scared.  I was perfect for a week and a half.  Yesterday I fell apart. I probably could have resisted...but I had my husband convinced to let me cheat....so I went for it.  Last night I had BK...and 3 glasses of wine...  And today I did great...but then I had nachos.  I was going to really blow it and have a chocolate muffin...but I took a bite of it...then told my husband..."This is stupid...I dont even want this....throw it away."  I am beating myself up...but hey I am only human I guess.  I am back in control again.  For good this time.  Thanks for listening.

The good thing is that you're still 3 weeks before surgery. Call your doctor and/or nutritionist on Monday and talk to them about this. Maybe you should see a therapist and figure out why you cheated?  Start new tomorrow and don't do it again. You can do it - we've all had to do it.

OK! So, you have fessed up. NOW- you must move on. YOu can do this. This is too important to cheat again. Be strong! YOu can do it!!! I wish you luck with this.  Lori

It's good that you confessed it, now talk to your nut and move on.  Quit beating yourself up.  That's one thing we all do and beating ourselves up is one thing we do that sabotages us.  Use this as a learning experience.

Make sure you confess to the Doctor. You poor thing you have had a long time on this LD. I only had to do it for 10 days. Hang in there Chica!

Well you don't suck.  This is some hard stuff to deal with.  I stated in one of my blogs that the liquid diet was one of the hardest things I have ever done and I only had to do it 14 days.  You really have to think about it as you stoped eating your favorite foods cold turkey.  You went from eating anything and everything you wanted for you entire life to only being able to drink your meals.  That is HARD.  I'll be honest, I cheated and I felt really bad and horrible and felt guilty, but I got myself back together and followed the LD for the rest of the time required and my liver had still shrank enough that the doctor was happy.  The key to this mis-step is to get back on track now and follow the diet until the surgery.  You can do it!!!

You have a crazy long LD - I'd be willing to guess that MOST of us would have snitched a lil' sumthin' sumthin' if we had to do it as long!  But you recognized your blunder, and it sounds like you've re-committed yourself to doing the right thing.  I seriously doubt you've done any harm.  In fact, if you want to put a positive spin on this, it's a major learning experience.  You've learned that you are - *gulp* - HUMAN!  So pick yourself up, brush yourself off, and DECIDE you will be STRONGER than the urges that made you obese in the first place!!!  Get pissed off at the things that give you cravings!   Personally, I believe you will do GREAT with this whole WLS thing!  I was SO IMPRESSED that you ventured down to Elm Creek last weekend for tubing, not having met ANY of us, not having had surgery yet - to me, that speaks WAY louder of your commitment to this lifestyle change than a temporary set back in the LD!  So come to as many get-togethers as you can, coffees or what have you (I know there aren't many that are very convenient for you, way up there in Wyoming!)  It'll be worth the trek as often as you can make it! And for cryin' out loud, KEEP COMING HERE!

Naomi...don't beat yourself up over this...it sounds like you have learned from it and that is good.  You really have to be on a long LD ...a lot longer then most...mine was two weeks. Good luck and don't give up. You can do it I know you can!! Keep you eye on the prize!! Hugs, connie d