My thoughts

Sandra N.
on 2/4/08 12:00 pm - MN

I have been doing alot of thinking lately. About my "inner" self. Like, why wasn't I happy with who I was before WLS. Why did I think Losing all the weight would make me happy? All this time I have been unhappy with who I was and what I was/am doing with my life. Thinking "if only" I could change this or that. When I decided to have WLS, that is when I cared enough about myself to become healthy. That began the process to love myself. As the weight started to come off I began to see a person I have tried to hide and didn't like. It was a vulnerable, hurt little girl that pretended life was good. A little girl who loved people, animals and enjoyed the simple things in life. A little girl who was hurt by a stranger. A little girl who started to hide, pretend to be tough. A little girl who was afraid to show weakness. As I have been working with a therapist, I see how my thoughts then were not correct. I see that weakness is not failure, wrong but rather human. I see that the little girl who needed to reach out for help but didn't, should have. I see that it is ok to have fears, be vulnerable, to be weak and to ask for help. Why do we think that we have to be perfect? Why can't we see ourselves the way God does? Why do we put conditions on everything? It's ok to try, not get it right and learn from it. It's ok to cry even if someone will see you. It's ok to be mad as long as you don't hurt someone else. It's ok to have a bad day. It's ok to be quiet. This has taken me nearly 14 months to figure out. It's so scary to "unvail" myself but soooo freeing. It's awesome to be me and not pretend anymore. It's unbelieveable to not try to please people and just be me ~take it or leave it~!! It's amazing to be able to say "this is me, nothing less, nothing more". And better yet to say "This is me, I like me, I love me, I'm me and if you don't like me THAT's OK!!!" I say all this in hopes that someone else will get it sooner then I did. In hopes that someone will look in the mirror and say "I'm A-OK!" In hopes that someone will just let go and be them and learn to love them one day sooner. Embrace your uniqueness, your beauty, what God has bless you with, and realize that God doesn't make junk! And that God loves us and wants what is best for us. He didn't want that little girl hurt but has used that hurt to help others. I love you all and may you love you too!

~Sandie~ -147!!WLS:12-12-06:Preop 268,Ht.5'4",BMI 44.9
Click on link to see my journey!!!
http://www.onetruemedia.com/my_shared?z=2bfaca5561a1d558fceb
87&utm_source=otm&utm_medium=text_url
"Do unto others as you'd have done to you"~ The Golden Rule to Live by!
You are what you EAT and WHO you hang out with! Choices=Outcome~ what's YOUR choice??
I'm not perfect but I am going to die trying!!!

Brea M.
on 2/4/08 12:10 pm - MN

Lap Band on 12/11/07

Sandie~ thanks for the inpiring message. You sent it at a perfect time for me! Today has been a down in the dumps day for me. I have been feelign frusterated with everything, but mostly I just feel like I am not going anywhere with the surgery. I know banding is different then RNY..but I see all you guys dropping weight and I am not. Its just coming off very slowly. I have been very discouraged today. So thanks for the pep talk!!

Sandra N.
on 2/4/08 12:13 pm - MN

RNY on 12/12/06

Hey Hon! Remember that you are you! Don't compare. Also, would you have lost what you have if you hadn't been banded? YOU are doing great! Keep it up! The sun will shine soon even on the rainiest of days. Love to you!

~Sandie~ -147!!WLS:12-12-06:Preop 268,Ht.5'4",BMI 44.9
Click on link to see my journey!!!
http://www.onetruemedia.com/my_shared?z=2bfaca5561a1d558fceb
87&utm_source=otm&utm_medium=text_url
"Do unto others as you'd have done to you"~ The Golden Rule to Live by!
You are what you EAT and WHO you hang out with! Choices=Outcome~ what's YOUR choice??
I'm not perfect but I am going to die trying!!!

Missy W.
on 2/4/08 9:37 pm - Cloquet, MN

RNY on 11/07/07

You have come so far! Just look at your eating habits! You have changed so much in a short period of time. You workout almost everyday! You are toning your boidy and that is more healthy then sheading pounds. It will happen for you when you least expect it. I am very proud of you! Keep it up and you will be suprised! I love ya!

Jesus declared, "I am the bread of life. He who comes to me will never go hungry, and he who believes in me will never be thirsty."
--John 6:35

Brea M.
on 2/4/08 12:20 pm - MN

Lap Band on 12/11/07

Thanks...I was begining to think the only time I would lose is after a fill. Seems like that is the only time I do lose..since I am back on a LD for a day or two after each one. I have lost 19 lbs. Uggghhhh!

*~ Dayner Dee ~*
on 2/4/08 6:22 pm - East Burbs, MN

Revision on 02/08/05

Thanks for sharing your thoughts Sandie.. Hugs to you!

Dana

Sandra N.
on 2/4/08 9:58 pm - MN

RNY on 12/12/06

Thanks Dana! Hugs back atchya! MWUAH!

~Sandie~ -147!!WLS:12-12-06:Preop 268,Ht.5'4",BMI 44.9
Click on link to see my journey!!!
http://www.onetruemedia.com/my_shared?z=2bfaca5561a1d558fceb
87&utm_source=otm&utm_medium=text_url
"Do unto others as you'd have done to you"~ The Golden Rule to Live by!
You are what you EAT and WHO you hang out with! Choices=Outcome~ what's YOUR choice??
I'm not perfect but I am going to die trying!!!

SJ41
on 2/4/08 8:45 pm - IGH, MN

RNY on 01/02/08

Sandi

You better believe you are OK. One does what one has to do to protect oneself. Good for you.

Take care...........Sharon aka: Linda's mom

Surgery 1/2/'08 @ 227 lbs.......today, 143 and working towards 138.

:-)

Sandra N.
on 2/4/08 9:59 pm - MN

RNY on 12/12/06

Hello Sharon!!! Look at how well you are doing!! WOW!!! Keep up the great work!

~Sandie~ -147!!WLS:12-12-06:Preop 268,Ht.5'4",BMI 44.9
Click on link to see my journey!!!
http://www.onetruemedia.com/my_shared?z=2bfaca5561a1d558fceb
87&utm_source=otm&utm_medium=text_url
"Do unto others as you'd have done to you"~ The Golden Rule to Live by!
You are what you EAT and WHO you hang out with! Choices=Outcome~ what's YOUR choice??
I'm not perfect but I am going to die trying!!!

debim3
on 2/4/08 9:19 pm - Roberts, WI

RNY on 11/13/07

What a beautiful and inspiring message. I know you touched my heart and I teared up while reading it. I am working towards where you are. I hope to be able to say one day that I am a beautiful person and to not have the need to people please everyone. I'm sure you have touched more than will reply. I really do feel that we all have hurts that we've been hiding and stuffing down with food, we are all so similar and it just is comforting to know I'm not the only one and that I'm not crazy (well, maybe a little, but in a good way

). I pray that God continues to bless you and I am thankful that you continually bless us with your love and wisdom... Debi

HW 265 / SW 226.5 / CW 130.5 / GW 135

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