I'm mad at my self

Hi I am so mad at myself what do I do?  I do daycare and got really bored today at nap time and I ate a little hot fudge sundae.  It was fat free and sugar free and I know this is no excuse.  Do you think I hurt my new tummy?  I am still on pureed foods I did try reg soft food for like 2 days and decided to go back to pureed cuz I don't want to screw anything up.  And also I am always on this darn computer I am always looking to see what people say and what not.  I am so darn mad right now I know better and now I feel like I really screwed things up.  I haven't lost any LBS in 2 days and I feel like a bloated toad again.  I don't feel good about myself today how en the heck to I get over that.  Will I ever?   What do I do and please don't yell at me for eating I know it was wrong.  Good gosh I just wanna cry.....Thanks for lettin me vent (not like ya had a choice right) Hugs Marsha

Marsha, I began keeping a journal when i started my journey. I suggest starting one today. (blogspot.com) Write down what you did today, how you were feeling when you ate, what you ate, how much (be HONEST) and how you feel NOW. Falling off the wagon sucks azz! but you know what, others have said it a million times and I'm telling you again... we are human, we had surgery on our stomachs not our heads. You have got to find something else to do for when you get bored. begin learning what your triggers are.. mine was emotional.. so now when I get upset instead of eating I keep a gymbag and my shoes in my truck and I walk right past the fridge and straight to my truck to the gym. The one thing I've learned more than anything is the need to know myself, and this has been a journey to know and understand myself as much as to get control over my weight and discover a healthier lifestyle. The choices you have made are forever, a lifestyle change. Sure you will have some slip ups but just keep getting on the horse, each mistake is a learning lesson. it's up to you to learn the lesson or to ignore it. You can do this, and we're all here to hellp you. Quit kicking your own ass already! Just write it down and forgive yourself and move on...the rest of today will be better now, and tomorrow will be easier.  Hugs L.

Marsha it is hard to let go of the thing that have brought us comfort before. Just try your best...learn from your mistake and don't beat yourself up over it!! Get back on track...you didn't mess anything up!! Sometimes people need help from a therapist because of the food and head hunger issues. Don't think you have anything to worry about there right now. Hugs, connie d

Marsha,

Ok, you are where you are.  You've beaten yourself up and now it's time to move on.  You know what you did and now you need to find something else to do when those emotion****  Maybe a work-out tape you can play while the kiddies sleep?  Something, anything.  I know you're at a disadvnatage because you can't pack up and leave, so you need to do a little planning when the food calls you. Your doctor gave you the OK for soft foods right?  You won't screw things up by trying them.  I just started soft foods this week and tried some chicken meatballs with moz cheese and a little marinara sauce.  It was yummy and ever so satisfying.  It took me 40 mintues to eat it but what the heck.  It felt so different to chew.....I almost forgot how.  It sure takes alot longer now though.  I had a boiled egg with a little mayo and paprika for a change and tonight I'm having fish.  I'm lovin the variety I get now and it brightens my day.  Remember, I'm one of the unlucky ones that does get hungry.   Give yourself a break today and realize you've come so far in a short time and you would be the first to ask all of us to forgive ourselves for the slips we make.  We love you Marsha and you need to too.  If you think you need help dealing with this and you think it will be an issue in the future find a professional to talk to before it gets out of hand.  I know what you're probably thinking......this is the way it all started. Pick yourself up and dust yourself off!  I think your tummy is just fine it's the thing that sits on your shoulders that's giving you problems. Bonnie

 

I dont think its the "what" you ate ( although not good) its the mindset you had. This will creep in again... if you let it.    Im assuming there was sugar alchohol's in that sundae... and if you didnt dump you might not have issues with sugar, which will make turning down those kind of temptations hard. PLEASE try to remember that you had SURGERY... to change this..it didnt change your brain. You will have these obstacles come up again.. its time to start getting our brain trained a new way. I dont want to sound harsh....just dont do that to your pouchy... its way to early to begin experimenting. :) Linda

Ditto what Linda said.  SHE is my inspiration and has tons of knowledge!  So, with that said, don't beat yourself up, drink tons of water, eat your protein first, get your exercise in and the lbs WILL drop!  Hang in there dear!  ****HUGS****

Thank you.... I took my little man swimming tonight and we had fun....I feel better about everything now and i am not even hungry it was a boredom thing.... I know I have to overcome that when the need hits.  Thanks again Marsha

One thought that helped me?  I was ALWAYS a member of the clean plate club.  You di**** up, you fini****  I've had to flush THAT mindset down the crapper!  If I fix myself up with a lil' sumth'n that I know I shouldn't have?  Well, I can allow myself a taste and then get rid of the rest (give it to someone else, or throw it in the garbage with something disgusting on top!).  Or I have a friend who suggested (this is kinda gross, but she did it when she lost a lot of weight and I have done it a couple of times myself) chew the thing you want, but don't swallow it - spit it out in the garbage can!  I spit some hot dish out once - it was in my mouth before I even realized it shouldn't be!  So, I spit it out.  And I was so disgusted with myself for the mindlessness of it being in my mouth, I didn't touch it any more.  One other time, I was chewing on a couple of Hot Tamales (my DD loves them!), and I realized how stupid that was, so - spit 'em out.  I would NOT recommend chewing and spitting out whatever whenever, but if something is already IN your mouth, then yeah - get rid of it before you swallow it!   And I hate to waste food, but that now keeps me from fixing it in the first place!  And the hot fudge sundae thing?  Really, take a bite, then toss it.  It probably wouldn't survive being sent to some starving child in Darfur, anyway. 

Good grief!  Cut yourself a little slack.  It was fat free, sugar free, and melted it's a full liquid.  I can think of probably a million things you could have eaten that are much worse. We live in the real world.  We are going to make poor choices sometimes.  We are human.  I don't think it's good to punish ourselves over food.  Just make the decision to do better. Sugar alcohols bother some people and not others.  You are going to find out how they affect you.  If it's no big deal that means you can have a little sf treat every now and then.  Good for you!  You know you were going to try it sooner or later!

Hey Marsha, I just wanted to say that I hope today is a better day for you and I hope you forgave yourself, learned from it, and keep moving forward!!! Don't look back, there is no reason to. Just be changed from your experience. Maybe make a list of things you can do when boredom sets in. I think in the WLS for Dummies book, there is like a list of 100 things...or I know I've seen that somewhere anyhow... Just a thought. Put a smile on your face and know that you are loved and supported!