OT-Sorry...been AWOL lately.

This job situation has really got me in a funk.  I can't believe that I'm being this way.  I'm just SOOOOOOOOOO worried about what I might find out tomorrow that I've been in a funk since Thanksgiving.  All I've been doing is sitting watching tv and munching.  Meals????  Really, is that what I'm suppose to be eating?  Tonight, I had some microwave popcorn for supper.  What the **** is that?  I brought work home to do over the weekend and I haven't even opened up my computer bag to look at it!  Unbelievable.....I've literally sat on my butt and done nothing.  I did get outside yesterday for a couple of hours and rake leaves.  I was suppose to get out and finish today, but do you think I did?  Nope....I sure didn't.   I come to the computer to come on the boards and read a couple of posts and log off....I am having a really hard time I can't even respond.  I want to and then think, "Nah" I'll just log off.  Go back to my room and sit and watch more tv.  I've been in a zombie state.   I don't get like this.  I've been through a LOT in my life and adversity and bad  news are no strangers to me....yet this, even though I don't know that I'm going to be one of the 38 people that lose their jobs has me totally screwed up!   I really need to get a grip!  This being down about something that hasn't even happened isn't reality.  I'm praying, I know He hears me, I know it's in His hands, I know that the wonderful bumper stickers he placed in front of me were there for a reason.  Now, I just have to take heed to what they said and "RELAX".   My sister and BIL stopped by yesterday and I just wanted them to leave.  I just wanted to be alone.  That's horrible!  My son got home tonight and I was like, "Oh great, someone here."  BLAH!   GRRRRR SHAKE IT OFF GIRL!   I want to apologize for not replying to posts.  You've all been soooo supportive of my journey and I want to be just as supportive of everyone elses, I just need to become myself again, not this zombie person that has taken over.    Sorry for how long this got and me whining....I just feel soooo blah. I pray that I will be able to come back here tomorrow or the next few days and say I was all worried about nothing. 

Pam,

So sorry to hear about your funk - but I can totally understand - it's really hard to have so much preocuppying your mind to think about cheering others on.  I pray that tomorrow goes well for you and that you don't lose your job.  I also pray that the good ol' Pam comes back - the one that has a super positive energy about her and can tackle just about anything!

No matter what happens with your job, just remember that no matter how devastating it seems now, I firmly believe that things happen for a reason and that means that God has something even better in store for you.

Take care - Let go and let God!

love ya girlie!

You don't have to be sorry!!!  People get busy, people get down, people shouldn't expect anyone to respond to every dang message posted.   Ditto what Tracy said about being in God's hands and the path you are supposed to follow...... PLEASE BE SURE YOU LET US KNOW WHAT HAPPENS.....Not only with you, but with your fellow workers.  I'll keep all of you in my prayers because this would be devasting to anyone...... XXOO

Hey girl!  First off, you look fantastic!  I can't wait to see you in person!  Second, I had no idea what you were going through at work.  I guess I would have had I been on here or had taken a minute out of my f-up life to ask!  I'm keeping my fingers crossed with all the bs that you went through to get that job that you are able to be one of them to keep it! Keep us posted as to how you are doing.  Oh, and everyone goes through it.  Believe me!   I hope things are better and that you have found out what's going on at work.  Hang in there.  Remember that HE doesn't give you any more that you can handle! Love ya! Stacey

Im so sorry your so blue! I remember my first year going through that and thinking...what the hell Im losing...Im looking the way I want to and feeling the way I want and I feel like crap! I had a real ruff < wink > time of emotions and such ...  Im not sure if this is the same thing..but please let your Dr. know.  Its a waste to be so low and keep falling lower. There are things that could help.

And as far as the eating goes.  The more choices you make like popcorn for dinner will also make you feel badly.  You arent getting the nutrients your body and brain need.  That will make this loop of depression worse, if you arent feeding your mind.  Are you atleast getting in your vitamins?  So..first thing first... Call your Dr.  Second... take your vitiamins and drink your water.  And eat your protien young lady . Its for you...and know that theres a hug here for you whenever you need it ok? We love you dearly.... keep posting... it helps. Many warm hugs Me!

 

Oh Pam!!  I am sorry you feel this way!  But it is TOTALLY understandable!!!  I would probably be the same way!!!  I am sending prayers up today that you recieve good news HON!!!  Please let us know!!  And if there is anything I can do, I am only a stones throw from you!!!  PM me, I'll be there!!  LOVE AND HUGS SWEETNESS!!!

Pam, Like the others said, you do not have to apoligize for being down and not posting. You are a wonderful person and guess what else, you are human. We get down and it is a fact of life. That is what is making this so hard, because there really is nothing you can do about it. Try to stay sane while you are going thru this time and remember we will be here for you when you need us. I know the possibility of losing your job or for the matter the others that will, has you down. let us know if there is anything we can do, I will continue to pray for you and the others as this part of your lifes journey is changing!  Be Well,       CarolN

hi Pam I just had to write something to you becasue I have been there done that. It happened to me about 10 years ago. and it came out of the blue I didn't even see it comming was the worst part. The funny thing now that I think back was how in the world was I going to tell my wife didn't even worry about how betrayed I felt. I guess had I know I would have been like you and said to h**l with work. The only thing I can tell you from my experience is when bad things seem to happen to good people they alwasy seem to come out in a better position. I will wish good mojo your way! Jim

i'm wishing for you all the very best.  it's all been said already but i will repeat the part about not feeling bad about not getting on the board so much.   i think we all do what we can and i also believe that our posts come in 'waves'.  when we feel really low or really up we tend to share.  or, at least, that's what happens with me.  you're in my thoughts and prayers, hun.  good luck. hugs dorthe

Pam, I'm sorry that you feel so down.  It must be terrible to be under the threat of unemployment no matter how 'they' do the axing. If these awful feelings persist, please talk to your doctor.  It sounds like depression to me. And there are wonder drugs out there that sure can make a difference! A favourite saying that was  given to me by a friend is  'God promised you a safe landing, not a calm passage.'   And it's really cool to believe and such, but sometimes it'd be great if Jesus had skin.  A real live hug would be awesome! BUT since you're there and I'm here, a cyberhugs's gonna have to do--until we get together at the coffee klutsch  on the 17th! (((HUG))) **SUE**