I've Met The Limits of My Pouch (Sorry kindda long)

I've forgotten what makes this process work.  I've been in such a funk the past few months.  Living out of both sides of my pouch.  I would play the role of the WLS graduate and say the right things while in secret I would be pushing my carb intake to the maximum.   It's almost as if I wanted to punish myself for losing weight.  It's been ugly and I've now gained 15 lbs, and I'm in a panic.  I know it has to be back to pouch 101 for me.  I have to love myself enough to do it.  I need to post more and get the support I need through this tough patch.  I've been on the boards from a  distance because I was too ashamed to post.  However yesterday was too physically uncomfortable for me pouch wise that I woke up today and took my 1st step back on my WLS path to health.  Step One for me is being accountable which also includes shariing this 'stuff' with my therapist.  I also will be posting more about me and supporting you as we go forth on this journey.

Sorry this is so long.

Margo

Hey Margo!  Welcome back and let us know how we can help and support you!  That is why we call this a journey because it never really ends!  Take care and GREAT job on taking the steps to get back to WLS101!!!

Thanks Sandie.  It's hard but I'm glad I'm taking baby steps back in the right direction.

You've come a long way -- recognizing the things you need to do is the first big step!!!  You can do it -- you know it works.  Maybe try a mini-LD to cleanse yourself of the carbs and stuff.  Then you will be ready to go on working the tool without that stuff in your system!!!   YEAH FOR YOU!!!!  We are here for you!!! XXOO

Thanks for the support Barb.  I'm glad to know I have the support of the board to help me through this.

Hugs

Margo

Barb, I also meant to say thank you for the LD suggestion.  I think that will help me detox from the carbs and get my mind going in the right direction.

Hello Margo...you are right, admitting it is the first step in the right direction. We will all be here to support and cheer you on. Good Luck!!! Hugs, connie d

Thanks Connie.  I appreciate the support!

Hugs,

Margo

Thanks for posting, you actually made me feel better about me. I did the same thing. I eat until I dump, and do it again and again. I didn't gain that much weight, but my clothes were fitting differently for me.  I decided to try to get myself off those nasty carbs, so I decided to do the 5 day pouch test. http://www.5daypouchtest.com It let me feel like I was in more control of my eating that it was controlling me by being able to finish and not cheat.  Good luck to you, and know you're not the only one dealing with these feelings. Farrah

Thanks Farrah.  Though I know that I'm not the only person experiencing this, I'm glad to read that soemone else experienced the nasty carb battle.  I feel like I'm in the world by myself when I start to struggle.  Thanks for sharing.  Also thanks for the 5 day pouch test info.  I'm going to check that out.  I woke up this morning and started a 5 day liquid diet to try and purge the toxic carbs out of my system.  Next step is to make sure my pouch has survived my carziness. 

Hugs,

Margo