It's okay, I'm okay so ....is it okay? (blast from the past)

 Remember me?I’m so sorry about the way I left but honestly, my heart and spirit were broken and I couldn’t be here…. I don’t know if that makes any sense at all, but I figure if anyone would understand, it would be you guys!!   Now, it’s okay…..I’ve accepted that it is what it is…..and to be more specific….my blood work came back with some liver issues…..my PCP thought it might be worst case scenario so, all WLS thoughts were put on hold while we took care of this with multiple tests….in the end, everything has come back NEGATIVE—I have no liver disease …. During this time of testing, I rejoined Weigh****chers...I’m down 11.8 pounds as of last Saturday (I weigh-in on Saturday mornings).  I feel AMAZING!  I joined a gym and am working out, hired a trainer and am determined to reach my goal weight of 135!  I feel stronger for what I faced and I know in my heart...I CAN! Also, I found out my insurance was going to go up so much so that I could no longer afford it thru my employer...so I’ll be switching to my husbands insurance, saving money BUT it does NOT cover WLS.  So, it’s a good thing I’m on a mission with WW and exercise….. Devastated still?  Somewhat.  But I’m at peace with it all now and am ready to move forward with this chapter of my life which, it appears, no longer includes WLS  for me. It’s okay.   I’m okay…….so is it okay if I still hang out with you all here even though I can’t ever join you in the WLS arena????  I so wanted to be one of the gang….and hope, in many ways, I am. I’ve really missed you all and apparently have missed a great many milestones!! You guys are soooo amazing….I’m so sorry I had to leave and work thru my issues which caused me to miss surgeries, accomplishments….all the good you’ve done!!! Can you guys forgive me???  I still need you all as I’m still on a weight loss journey…..but if you guys would rather not have a non-WLS person around, I understand, just let me know. Thanks for reading this far.  I’ll check back later and see where I stand with you all. 

OMG GF!!!!  YES, YES, YES.  PLEASE COME BACK!!!!  WE WERE ALL VERY CONCERNED ABOUT YOU.  BUT WE UNDERSTAND THAT SOMETIMES PEOPLE NEED TO SORT THINGS OUT FOR THEMSELVES.  I, FOR ONE, HAVE TRULY MISSED YOU.

SOOOOO HAPPY THE TESTS TURNED OUT NEGATIVE.  AND GOOD FOR YOU FOR JOINING WEIGH****CHERS AND A CLUB AND WORKING AT THE WEIGHT ISSUE.  SOMETIMES GOD SENDS US AN ANSWER ~~ AND JUST BECAUSE IT ISN'T THE ANSWER WE WANT, DOESN'T MEAN YOU SHOULDN'T LISTEN.  LOOKS LIKE YOU HEARD YOUR ANSWER.  AND WHO KNOWS, THIS COULD BE THE BEST FOR YOU RIGHT NOW.  WE DON'T ALWAYS KNOW WHY, BUT THEIR IS A PLAN AND ANSWER FOR ALL OF US.

PM ME IF YOU WANT TO TALK......YEAH -- YOU'RE BACK!!!! XXOO

thanks Barb

and CONGRATS on your surgery!!!!

Looks like you are workin' that tool!!!

I learned a new mantra this weekend:  we can't and won't do anything till we're ready.  (realizing sometimes external factors are the case too).  So with that and your journey with WW, are sound like you are at a point where you are ready.  I wish you lots of luck and encourage you to keep coming back.  Support has been so key in the 3 years I've been on this site.  It is a huge grounding help and if in doubt that that site isn't for you?, go to snglcls's posting for today.  That's a great, all around weightloss article.  Good luck. Karrie

Thank you so much!

I admire you for your resolve and determination! We are MN Weight Loss board NOT MN Weight Loss SURGERY board...! :) Heather

Thank you Heather! 

PEACHES IS BACK!!!!  PARTAY!!! This is Obesity Help, not Weight Loss Surgery help - and we can ALL learn from the extremely different and personal journey's we are on, IF we share!  So I, for one, DEFINITELY want you back!!! As a matter of fact, are you free for coffee this Saturday morning?  9am, Caribou coffee in the Byerly's in Maple Grove!  I'd LOVE to see you there!!!!

Thank you Darla!!!!

I'm going to try to stop in after my WW meeting on Saturday!!
~HUGS~

PEACHES!!! Absa-friggin-lutely you can be here!!!

So, so glad to hear from you and what's been going on & no apology is needed, my goodness. Everyone else has already said similar stuff to what I would have, so "ditto" all their comments! WELCOME BACK!