I am so depressed!!!

I dont know what to do I really dont .. I have tried to get help but being  on state insureance gets me about as far as no where... but then again no one really cares... I keep trying maybe it will be when something bad happens that someone will see how things are..  all I do now adays is cry an cry again I cant seem to get my self out of this hole I have dug please help!!!!

Whoa.....slow down for a second.

First, what's the issue?  If you need help from us (which most of us are happy to give) you have to write a post that tells us what is going on and not just that things suck.  How can we help if we don't know what is going on?

I apologize if you posted earlier and I missed it, but going back over your posts, it doesn't seem like it.  

Take a breath and tell us what the issue(s) are.  It might feel better to get it off of your chest.

I am so sorry to hear of your difficulties.  Believe me, people really do care.  Sometimes our pain is so deep, it is hard to see those around us who care about us and worry about us.  But, this isn't something that you should go through alone, and there is help out there for you to help your situation improve.  You may want to contact the Washtenaw Community Mental Health Center - they offer services for those not able to afford other programs.  They can be reached 24 hours, 7 days a week.

734-544-3050
  -  or  -
800-440-7548

I will be keeping you in my prayers, that tomorrow is brighter for you and the pain you are feeling will lessen.  God bless. 

OK lets update... well to start things off I moved out of my parents house an in to my boyfriends(now husbands) house. An from the point on they will not except me or my husband an there reason behind all of that is that my husband served a yr in prison. an they thought he was hiding this from me which he was not we have been very open with anyone about it as long as they ask an do not go around looking for info second thing is I have been unemplyoed an out of work (while I know a good part of michigan is) Everything thinks that I am a bad person because I am. I have been job searching from day one.. tell everyone that I would take anything. I am not picky anything to bring money in a my mom hates they fact that I have to be on food stamps. well excuse me at least I do not abuse the system like so many other people do I only take what I need. Second off  or rather third off I have been going on a job interview an my parents are like I want to take you I dont belive you are going on interview. Well excuse me last time I checked it was only I who needed to know as I am 23 soon to be 24 yr old an live an take care of my self. An the straw that broke the last back was my van that I was buying from my childhood neighbors finally gave out. They told us it was in mint shape... sorrry I have not even put 5000 miles on it only had it 3 months an the water pump the head cracked the excuast system all need to be re done.... So plus I have been tryiing to get my self back on track with my wl which only is addinig to my stress... I feel bad for stressing an I really dont know what to do...


NOW I SAY THIS I WOULD NOR HAVE EVER DO ANY HARM TO MYSELF!

you should prioritize

get your ducks in a row

make a list

by  order of need.

then shoot.

start picking off the list (checking) one thing at a time.

First things first  Take care of your most immediate need first.

Wayne county Social Services may be able to give you a list of resources.

Why was your companion in jail?
Is it something that reflects on you and the person you are?
maybe your parents are upset because they don't want to see you struggle in life because he has mad bad choices. Or feel you are suffering because of the consequences he is forced  to live with because of his record and his past actions.

I'm sorry to hear that you have so many problems.  Life sure isn't fair - I know.

I was 29 and had finally got out on my own when the found a brain tumor.  Told me I'd be back to work in 2-3 months.  Guess what - 20 years later I'm still not back to work and depend on social security.  If it weren't for the fact I had my parents to rely on I'd be out on the streets.

At times it has been a pain in the ass having to move back in with my parents.  I have been looking for work for quite some time not.  I did work part time for  months as work study at the college but once the money ran out, so did the job.

And even tho everyone SAYS that volunteer work is important, it doesn't seem to be the case for me.  Oh, and all of the work I did from 1977-1990 aint worth crap either.  And my associate degree is actually the new high school diploma.

Since 2007 I had to file for bankruptcy and now in late 2009 I had 2/3rds of a settlement from a lawsuit taken away from me because they said I didn't disclose it.  How could I went I didn't know if I'd get it, when I'd get it or how much??  I blame the frickin' lawyer on that one....

My health insurance just went up 150% and right now I'm trying my best to stay above water.  It frustrates me to no end as I feel I will NEVER get ahead, I will never get a job and never be out on my own and be financially stable at the same time.

But ya know what?  I take things one day at a time.  That's all I can do.  I'm at the bottom of the barrell and now it's time to climb out because I know things can only get better.

The relationship with your husband and your parents feelings about him?  I have something similar going on.  Right now they don't know I'm still in touch with him (limited as it may be).

Coming here and posting has probablly helped in more ways than one.  You've gotten some good advice and I hope you will take it and run!

I think Mary is giving you very good advice about getting your ducks in a row and starting at the top with the most important and moving your way down the list.   I see you had surgery with Dr Pesta, I also had the handome Dr Pesta!  If you want to get your WL back on track, come to the support meetings on Monday evening at 6pm at the Henry Ford Macomb Hospital ( the old Bi County Hosp).  I try to go most Monday's, it really helps me to talk to others about my issues, problems, success's and to know there are lots of people cheering you on to success.  If you want to come and don't want to go alone, let me know and we can go together!
Good luck with everything

Karen

awww  I understand!!! 15 months ago my entire world fell from under me. I am 34 years old and have 2 kids and I have been living with my mom for this past year because I have no other options.
Lost everything except what we could fit into our mini van...had to accept that my husband doesn't care what happens to the kids and I. I cannot find a job either... nobody wants to hire me! I have 2 degrees and I am a great people person but I was a stay at home mom for 10 years due to necessity.  I suspect one of the reasons I cant get a job is because of my weight though honestly.
4 months ago I couldnt get out of bed on my own or even walk to the freaking mailbox....breathing hurt! I thought I was going to die.

I'm not really sure why I am so much happier now MOST DAYS. I think the hardest lesson I learned was that you cannot ever sit down and let it ALLLL come down on you!! Break it up... pick one thing and work on that for a while and try not to stress about the other things... just one at a time... day by day sometimes hour by hour. Make sure you get out of the house when you can, exercise even jsut dancing around your house because it WILL make you smile.... search youtube for some of those great songs you havent heard in years and make playlists!

If you Yahooooo add me and we can chat too...I do think that helps sometimes as well!
send me a pm if you want my handle