Hello Michigan. I need a kick in the fanny

Ok I am being a whiney little brat here.  Just wonder if anyone felt this way or am I just totally crazy.

I am so depressed the last several days because I just want to get this done and over with so I can be on my way to the NEW ME.  I am so close, yet so far.  I have to "weigh in" 2 more times then in March my surgeon's office will submit me for approval.  And now I am stressing that I'll be denied.  ugh.  I wish I could just crawl into a hole til then.  

Ok kick my butt - but be gentle.

Suzy

Suzy -

This is totally normal.  We've all been there.  I had to do my 12 month insurance diet two times and that second time was a pretty bad time for me.  Even after I got my approval and surgery date, I wasn't super excited or hyper... just more like: "Let's get it done already!" 

The best thing to do is to not dwell on the every day crap.  Focus on the long range right now and remember that a year from now you're going to be in a completely different place.  So what you can now to keep your mind occupied with other stuff.  Stuff besides WLS --- try knitting or scrapbooking or snowshoing or bowling... whatever it takes to get your mind off the process and on to something else. 

Lean on us.  That's what we're here for.

Pam

I meant to address you earlier, Pam....

I really should be ashamed of myself.  12 months????????  ugh!  TWICE?  Crap!  Well bravo to you for your success!  

Ok - going to pull myself up by the bootstraps (Where the heck did that saying come from anyhow) and quit being a whiney little snot.


Suzy

You're not being a whiney little snot.  Your emotions are just as valid as anyone elses and you're allowed to feel them and express them to us.  What you're feeling is normal, don't diminish them or make them seem less important than they are. 

The crazy thing about this WLS journey that the doctors forget to tell us is that when they take the food away, they are, by default, forcing us to deal with our emotions -- plain and raw without the benefit of hiding behind the food we used to use in covering up those emotions.  It's a hard lesson.  We have to learn to acknowlede our emotions, learn to sit quietly with our emotions, figure out how to accept them as valid and important....  without trying to stuff them back down inside or covering them up with food.  It's the hardest part of this whole thing, I think. 

So be whiney.  Be frustrated and depressed and angry and impatient.  Be all those things.  It's healthy to experience emotion and know that it is alright to experience them. 

Your big day will be here before you know it.  Once that paperwork is submitted and you get your approval... things are going to be flying at the speed of light and you won't know which way is up.  You'll be on the loser's bench soon!

Thank you, you are very kind.  I really appreciate everything you said.  Save a spot on that bench will ya?

On a side note, I have family up there in Bay City and Pinconning!


Suzy

What you are going through is very normal!  Trust me I was the queen of 'wanting to get it done and over with'.  I was so obsessed with wanting to get my iinsurance approval and a date scheduled, it consumed me 24/7.  I guess because I was so afraid of being denied and it not happening. And to be honest, I was denied because my surgeon's office sent in my paperwork to soon since I was not yet done with my physician supervised diet.  Once I appealled and was approved, I finally got my date.

But Pam is completely correct when she says try and keep your self and mind occupied with NON WLS activities.  I spent my time 24/7 on OH.com and reading as much as i could about WLS and believe me, it only made the waiting harder! 

And just know that before long you''ll be saying 'Wow, I can't believe it's been a year since I had surgery'.  In the whole big picture, the time it takes going through the approval process does really go fast when you look back on it.  At least that's my experience.

Good luck to you!

OMG you both hit the nail on the head about me needing to do something else.  I thought I was nuts----the amount of time I spend here is ridiculous - and I am OBSESSING over it.  It's really getting to me.

Ok - I think I need to stay off the computer - and get out my crochet!!!!


Thanks, girls.


Suzy

Good luck Suzy.  Almost all of us have been in the same position as you.  I did as Pam did and obsessed.  I spent a lot of time on here, lurking, reading, learning.  It made me crazy, but at the same time I learned a lot from post-op experiences.

Try to stay away until you're approved, or just read all you can about what type of surgery you're looking to have.  Research before you commit.

We'll be here when you come back!

Jan

"I spent a lot of time on here, lurking, reading, learning.  It made me crazy, but at the same time I learned a lot from post-op experiences"



Yes yes yes!!  Exactly - I am so grateful for all that I am learning.....it's wonderful.  At the same time though, driving myself nuts.  I LOVE to look at post ops - that have been out a year - and how successful they are.  then that makes me MORE crazy about all the time being "wasted' right now ...LOL.  

But seriously - I need to knock it off.  And perhaps take a bit of a hiatus for now and concentrate on other things.......

Thanks so much!!

Suzy

Suzy,

I did the supervised diet for well over 18 months, because I actually went to the doctor believing that I would never have the surgery.  I could loose this weight on my own.....yea.  Once I decided that I needed to do this to save my life I was a lunatic.  I wanted it done and scheduled yesterday.  I researched, talked to people, researched all the types of surgery again.....I was crazy, it was the only thing I could think about.

My suggestion would be to sit back ask questions, learn as much as you can, this is the time to absorb all the advice you can get. 

Your time will come, then you'll have the rest of your life to live and enjoy.

Good luck and come on back and be whiney whenever you want ;).

Edie