two years out, 20 lbs up.

hi! i'm about to post what no one wants to read, hear, or even consider might happen to them. i'm sorry to be a downer. but i'm nearly 20 lbs up from my lowest of 150. i had surgery 06-18-07.

i know i've been emotionally eating, terribly. my mom passed away and i've been resorting to the comfort foods, and full-on binge eating to the point of puking, and sometimes repeating.

:(

so yeah, the surgery on my stomach somehow didnt affect my brain.  :/ i'm currently reading a binge eaters book, but it makes me hungry.

as does everything else.
oh yes, i work a fast food job too. which is not only degrading and humiliating it's also terribly bad for a former fat person with an eating disorder.

dr put me on adipex about this time last year, and i lost the ten lbs i gained then. but i got seriously agitated really easily.

can someone help me ease the hunger? i know it's quite a bit of the emotional and mental hunger, but i Feel it too. how have u gotten back on track? i have to lose this 20 lbs. i never even hit my goal of 130, which i've since even revised to 145. i know 167 isnt the end of the world. but if accept this, then what happens when 187 and 220 comes?

i need help.


thank you for reading/responding.

It doesn't sound like it is just hunger, but you have some emotional issues that are triggering it and need to be addressed. 

Do you have the ability to go to a therapist that specializes in eating disorders?  I know many people that do this, but I also know not everyone can do that.

Working at a fast food restaurant I'm sure definitely doesn't help - you have triggers all around you. 

I wish I could be more help other than saying "go back to basics", etc.  I'm not sure if there is a forum on this board that addresses this... you may want to poke around and look some. 

Good luck and (((HUGS)))

thank you for taking the time out to respond Jodi. i have since looked around and there are some forums.

i wouldl ove to find a therapist, but, it's not in the books for me at this time.

:)


thanks again.

That is exactly what has happened to me.
I am 2.5 years out (RNY 3/1/07), and my low was 152 and I'm sitting at 167 feeling like I'm back to 277.
I've read a lot of those books too, and it resulted in me starting a group to talk about these things.
Please check out my MeetUp page:
http://www.meetup.com/foodissues/
Sarah

i joined! i cant make the oct 4th meeting but when we find out when the following one is, i will request it off and be there!
thank you :)

Check out Pam T's blog she has a list of  "back  on track"  rules.  Sometime we have to go back to what worked for us in the first place.

Don't feel alone  . . I have been holding 16 of the 20 lbs I gained a year and a half ago.  But I've maintained and haven't given up.

Hang in there!

www.pamtremble.blogspot.com  

thanks k.
i did check out pams blog. it's great! i've been reading it. i want to join dr williams wellness therapy sessions he has to offer.

congratulations for maintaining!! i was at a point where i thought it was impossible to gain significant amounts of weight. hah. wrooooong.

but i'm determined to Not go back to the old me. gotta get emotions and hunger under control, and work out!

thank you for responding.


-Sarah

Hi Sara,

I've read in the last 2 years that a 10% regain is normal, sucks as it may, it's a reality. 

Don't beat yourself up, you realized it before it was 50, 75 or 100 lbs as many before you have. 

This is the one thing that scares the hell out of me.  I'm going to try to make their Oct. meeting, Sunday nights are not difficult, just hard to remember LOL!

Hopefully we can make it together and cheer one and another on.

Edie