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Oh sister, you are singing my song.  I had "control issues" as well when it came to the timeline of surgery.  Let's just say that I almost wasn't able to have surgery because I gained 20 pounds from May to October pre op.  I was just disgusted with myself, but could not stop eating. 

Like everyone here has already said, try and figure out why you are are eating.  What's going on just before you do.  How you feel after.  This is something I still struggle with, but thankfully, I'm able to work on. 

I have been berated here for saying that I'm not on a diet.  I choose not to call my lifestyle a diet.  If I think I'm on one, I automatically feel deprived as this cycle has continued throughout my life.  Now, I actually sit and think about nutritional value before stuffing something in my face.  I also choose to focus on the foods that I can have.  It's a lot easier than feeling sorry for myself because I can't eat cake. 

You are a strong person and you will figure this whole thing out.  We are here for you!

Jenn

That's exactly what it's like!  If I know in my head that I'm supposed to "diet" (watch what I'm eating, etc.), then I just want to eat and eat and eat!  I feel this compulsion to eat everything I can get my hands on.  Of course, this isn't new - it's the same thing I go through every time I try and diet.  The only time(s) that I've been successful are when the "magic" hits.  I know I sound like a freak when I say that - but it's true, and I can't explain it.  It's like someone turns a switch that says, "Lara can control her food intake now" and I can - and it's fairly simple.  At some point, the switch is turned off, and I inhale everything.

Let's just say that the switch hasn't been flicked yet! 

Thanks again for all of your advice - I'm going to keep pondering...  

I don't diet at all.  I eat what I want in much smaller quantities and try to be more conscious of good choices and good nutrition. Dieting is what I did back when I felt desparate and hopeless.  Now I am just living the healthiest, happiest life I can.

Oh i sooo hear you. I have surg date of Nov. 4th, right now, all I can think about is eating., and the current clothes i have are a bit snug. I am sitting here wanting to go get something RIGHT NOW, but I am drinking my decaf coffee. I understand your frustration and pain. It will get better though I am told and have proof all around me! hang in there, you ar not alone, Hugs.
Ann.