I've been missing in action...

Sorry guys...kind of fell off the face of the earth, so-to-speak, for quite some time.  At least off the board.  I still peak in occasionally, but I've been in quite a funk with weight gain (yes, about 45 lbs from my lowest, I hate to admit) and just plain feeling sorry for myself.  I HATE MORE THAN ANYTHING to be a whiner, even to myself, so I just stayed away.  I've always found my comfort zone or "nitch" in trying to encouraging others...it makes me feel good, but then I found myself stuck in a little "pity party" I made for myself and pretty much didn't "invite anyone!"  Does that make sense?  Anyway, I don't like it here!    I decided that I need the support of my buddies here.   Here's what I have been doing (don't try this at home!): 1.  Snacking 2.  Snacking on the wrong things 3.  Ignoring the no-sugar rule (I don't get sick on it...wish I didn't know that) 4.  Not getting in enough fluids 5.  Not exercising 6.  Did I say snacking??? Here's what I still do that is good: 1.  Still don't drink during or right after meals 2.  Don't drink pop 3.  Take all my vits 4.  Just starting walking again this week (Wow!  Hard to get started again!) 5.  Still have once a month support group meetings 6.  Blood pressure is still 120/80 without meds...Whew! So, do I know what I'm doing wrong?  YES. Do I know what to do to correct it?  YES. Can I do it?  That's the big question, it seems.   I've been in this rut for so long now, it feels hopeless...you know, like the "old days"....giving up before you start, basically, because you feel so far gone.    But I'm here, admitting my faults and asking for help, support, and wisdom.  You haven't let me down yet!:-)   I still don't know if I can get a grip, but I sure would like to try. Anyway....gosh, I sure sound like a "downer" here!  I've said this before but I'll say it again....The best advice to all newbies...."DON'T TEST THE WATERS!!"  STAY AWAY FROM THE BAD STUFF AND FOLLOW THE RULES.  IT'S EASIER TO STAY GOOD THAN TO GO BACK AND TRY TO "BE" GOOD. Love you all, Theresa

Theresa, Welcome back. I know that I have missed your postings. Good luck on your struggle. You can do this...look how far you came. Once you get going again there's nothing you can't do!\ Jan

Thanks so much for the encouragement Jan!  Yes, I have to remember how far I've come and get at it.  I know I sure felt better about myself when I was following the program....now to just keep at it.   Thanks again! Hugs, Theresa

Theresa, I am sooo glad to see you posting again. I am sorry to hear that you are struggling. I think all of us post ups go through these pressures sometimes.  My advice is to start with small goals for yourself. Okay this week you started to walk again. Next week try getting in say 24 more ounces of water than you have been getting in. I think if you do that it might help. Dont get overwhelmed by to much at once.  I used to feel similiar to the way you do. I am 20 pounds from my lowest weight. Although I would like to be back there again I actually like the way I look right now. I tend to follow the majority of the rules and cheat every so often not denying myself anything but if it gets up there I need to get back on the program for a week or so and I am back to where I was. My body was fed up with being at my goal weight though and it seems that no matter how much I try I cannot break that mark. I hate it but I guess I have made peace with it and I am just happy that I am not 327 pounds anymore.  I hope it helps I know it is not much. I am here if you need me. Please feel free to email me privately anytime you want some encouragement or to just vent.  Suzanne

Thanks Suzanne!

Your advice really hits home.  I can't take on too much at once, or it gets too overwhelming.  I plan to do just as you suggested....already started walking, will start getting the fluids in, watching out for all the goodies around me, especially at work.  That's tough.  

You are so right about being thankful for us at least not being where we started at, in my case, 285 lbs!  I'm still ahead of the game, but I want to be sure I never go back there.

Thanks again for you support!

Hugs, Theresa 

Glad you came back- we have missed you. Take things one day at a time and don't try to do everything in one day..and who said this surgery was the easy way out.  Sure doesn't seem  easy to me!!  You can do it and we are all here for you!!! Shannon

Hi Shannon! Yep, whoever said this surgery was the "easy way out" is out of their head.  It's a work in progress, and always will be.  But worth it!!  Thanks for the encouragement!!!  Sure have missed all of you! Hugs, Theresa

Welcome back.... I was gone for a while myself... I am sorry to hear what you are going through... But, you know what you need to do and it sounds like you are on the road to getting back on track... I wish you much luck... I know what a struggle it must be... I too have not been making the best decisions on my food choices, mainly because we have been getting food from the food back and don't have the money to buy what need.  It sucks but so far at least my weight is maintaining.. I hope to get back in a position to be able to buy my food that I need to lose.  Keep posting... we all need support especially during the times when we are struggling.... Good Luck sweetie... HUGS,

Thanks so much!  It means alot to know you all know what I'm going thru.  But I have to quit whining and get at it.  Walking again tonight!  Hugs, Theresa

Theresa, It's always nice to hear your honesty about this crazy journey.  I really respect you for "coming out".  I am in the same boat as you are now......I hope I can get a handle on things before the holidays.   Thanks for putting yourself out there, and keep up the good work! Brenda