feeling like a failure...

i guess i'm in need of some support, gang, and thought maybe i'd find some here... i'm about 5 months out from my RNY and it seems lately I'm doing a bit of a 'backslide'. It's way too soon for bad habits to creep back into my life, but it seems it's the way... i've snacked on popcorn a few times (as opposed to eating something protein-y), haven't been making a point about getting all of my protein in (good about the vitamins though), and seem to be choosing quantity over quality on occasion... for example, last night i went and got hummus and salad, 2 things i can eat a fair amount of because they go down pretty easy. i KNOW this isn't what i'm supposed to be doing. i KNOW this is what is referred to as 'eating around my surgery'. i'm freaked out. before surgery i was worried i would fail and this feels like the beginning of failure to me. i stopped myself last night and ended up throwing most of the salad / hummus out (no more temptation) and today i made a point of getting my protein in, but i'm shaken. Tried to go back to my support group meeting, but the saturday after thanksgiving there was apparently no meeting (it's once a month). as soon as i finish this post i'm going to go jump on my exercise bike, because i know that's what i should do... but did anyone out there go through this same kind of 'setback'? i need to know i'm not the only one and that i'm stronger than this now and will get past this...

It's all about choices. We have to choose what we put into our mouth. When you feel like you are slipping find some support. You did the right thing about trying to go to support group. Perhaps call your nutrionist for some adivce. Get back on track, get back to basics and make better choices. Think before you put anything into your mouth.  As kp would say..... Drink a glass of water and take a walk.  This isn't magic, it's work. It's life changing and you have to learn to change your old habits. Keep doing what you know you should do.

detroitgirl, hey, I am in the same boat right now.  I think I am doing the one last dance with food or something.  I have been choosing to eat cream soups, salads with lots of full fat dressing.  I still have a hard time believing that all I need is a half a cup of food at mealtime.  But, look at it this way.  I am almost positive that you are not exceeding your calories per day.  I was concerned just like you are.  I would eat and eat and feel that warm full feeling all day long.  But I plugged what I ate all day into fitday.com and guess what, only 800 calories.  I know, probably not the best 800 calories, but still.  I would be eating alot, but not really.  Yes, I have a problem with Grazing.  I am working through that.  I am sure that is why others in my june surgery forum have surpassed me by now.  Its just taking me longer to adjust.  I bet you have done great so far.  Your picture is awesome and you probably feel pretty dang good.  AND YOU SHOULD.  It will come, just dont beat yourself up, k?

I'm only 4 months out and sometimes have asked "why am I eating this?" Biggest time was when I had a piece of bread -- but you know, it didn't taste as good as I was expecting so that was the end of that.  I find myself making poorer choices when I haven't planned my meals out ahead of time.  When I've thought things through and planned accordingly.  As you yourself said "last night i went and got hummus and salad."  Try to get into a pattern with your shopping and cooking so you aren't going back to the old "go out and get something."  Also, yeah salad and hummus aren't the most ideal but would you have thought this was "bad" a year ago?  Puts some things back in perspective? You're doing the right things.  The surgery is a tool to allow us to 'reset' our bodies and habbits back to healthy.  It's up to us to follow through. Time for me to take a drink of water and walk down to the office. --Sax

Dan said tool. kp

I eat popcorn. I don't eat the big bag from the movie theater but I still have a bit. It's like what was said - choices. Drink a glass of water and take a walk. You'll be fine. kp

thanks all... hit the grocery store today and loaded up on good choices. rode my bike again, think i'm getting back on track. back to basics, as someone mentioned... i knew this wouldn't be easy, it's just been harder than ever the last few weeks. i guess this is where i buckle down and concentrate on really changing my life, huh?