Been away and OMG!!!!!

Well, let me first apologize for my absence lately... My depression has been really really bad. I almost put myself in the hospital but I had a few things in my life going on that kept me from doing that... Things are not all better yet and I may still go into the hospital but I wanted to update my best cyber friends on ALL that is going on... WOW.. so much to update....

1. I have not been to my new job in the past couple of weeks due to the depression.... It is just too much for me right now.... I can't really explain it (well, I think I can, but that is a lot to put down)....

2. On November 1st my son (Derek) came home on leave from the Army..... woo hooo.... His flight was delayed almost an hour and it was a late flight to begin with, then we had an hour drive home... I think we got back and like 1am... I am not used to staying up that late.... I was thankful to have him home though....

3. On November 17the my other son (Justin) came home from his dad's in Texas (for Thanksgiving break and his brother's wedding). I was sooooo happy to see him.... I have missed out on so much of his life the past couple of years with him moving to Texas.

4. Thanksgiving was great... I had all my family together and I ate a little bit of everything and got through another day

5. Saturday November 24th My son Derek got married to my new daughter in law, Maryanne.... Everything was beautiful and turned out great.. I had a hard time enjoying things with my depression being so bad, but I got through it and was happy to welcome Maryanne into our family....

6. Sunday November 25th, I sent Justin my other son, on a plane back to Texas.. the good bye wasn't that bad because I knew I was going to see him in just 3 more weeks for Christmas break.... I could not go through with him to the gate and had to say good bye at security... I made the hour drive home, only get home and find out his flight was delayed almost 2 hours... we got their early so he sat there for almost 3-1/2 hours... I felt so bad for him....

7. Monday November26th, I get a call from my son's step mom to let me know that Justin wants to move back to Michigan next month when he comes home from Christmas.... Wooooo Hoooooo I get my son back.... I have a lot of concerns with this, but I am excited about it.....

8. Tuesday November 27th... I get a call from my newly married son, Derek, letting me know that I am going to be a GRANDMA!!!!!! OMG.... I was still getting used to the idea of being a mother in law.... let alone a GRANDMOTHER... and they will not be here, they will be stationed in Louisiana.... So who knows when I will get a chance to see the baby.... OMG!!!!

9. Today, November 29th, We put Derek on a plane to where he is to be stationed with the Army at Ft. Polk Louisiana... I cried like a baby and I will miss him terribly... I wish I could see him at Christmas time. It will be the first time I don't have all my children together on Christmas....

So.... Life has been CHAOS needless to say and I am on an emotional rollercoaster ride... not to mention I hit my one year surgiversary on the 16th.... I think I am done losing weight... but we will see.. maybe if I can lay off the wine a bit, I will drop a little more, but with the way things are going, I need that glass every night... LOL....

So that is all about me lately... Again, I am so sorry for not posting or not being around, but I have been reading... I hope to get back to posting again, starting today....

HUGS to all,
Shawn M.

Shawn, Missed seeing you online. Congrats on the new DIL and up coming grand baby. Also on having your son come back home. Depression is hard to explain to anyone that has never had it. I hope things get better. By the way you are looking great! Jan

Thanks so much Jan.  Your post means a lot to me.  I am still in shock over the idea of becoming a grandma at 36 years old.... It just isn't right... LOL..... Thanks again!!! HUGS,

I understand how you feel. I was not quite 34 when I had my first grandchild. At least at 36 you can keep up with them. LOL.  Congrats again and keep us grandmas updated. Jan

Thanks again... I will do my best to keep everyone updated.... My DIL was just here today and it looks like she will be joining my son in Louisiana in just a week or two.  Things sure are moving fast for them... They will have their Army housing set up by next week sometime... I guess when my son wants something done he sure can make it happen... LOL... I just wish they weren't going to be so far away when the baby comes, but there isn't much I can do about that.... I just wish them the best.... HUGS,

Congratulations, Shawn, on the good news in your life.  It sounds like you had a wonderful Thanksgiving with your newly extended family.  I am sorry you are having problems with depression.  I know how debilitating it can be, as I took medication for it for many years as a pre-op.  For whatever reasons, I have been blessed to no longer need it as a post-op. Please try to come to the support group meeting NEXT Friday, it's okay if you are late, we'll still be there.  Bring wedding pictures if you have them. :) Debra M.

Thanks Debra!!!  I will do my best to make it to the meeting... All depends on when hubby actually gets home... I have missed so many of the meetings... I have it written on my calendar, so I plan on being there... Lets just hope I can find you all... LOL.... HUGS,

Well, Shawn, we all look the same, only smalllllllllllerrrrrrrr. The question is, will we recongize you???? Deb