what happend on Sat OT~

Wow, Things in an instant can change. In One second, everything is different. The way you lok at life, people, things Etc... Sat at 323AM~ Phone rings. You dont answer due to the fact that one Your too late to crawl outta bed, and get the phone in time, and 2 when they dont leave a message, you think O it must have been a wrong number... Just then The Cell phone goes off. My sister on the other end in a panic. "WHATS WRONG I SCREAM" ~ she talks in a shaky voice John is dead. My heart stopped thinking it Was my nephew, and I'm like "Can you please repeat that?" SHe says JOHN IS DEAD, I YELL Little John/evash ( as i'm starting to get a panic attack), she says NO Big John ( my niece and nephew dad) ...SHOCK I stand. He rolled his car over in an accident ( head trauma) in Warren on Ryan. 1 block from his house. I busted out in Tears. I yell the KIDS THE KIDS! NO please. POOR KIDS~ My nephew who is 8, my niece who is 4, and a child with his New Wife who is only 2. I sit here in tears Numb, Mouring, Not the fact of John, But the fact that these little ones will have No father, and How do you tell them? My sister tried to tell Laryssa today (4year old) , since my nephew is autistic, he wont understand nor really comprehend any of this. Well My sister tells her "do you know what angels are? They are all around you, They can see you , and hear you But you cant see them." My niece says "O they are invisable, playing hide and go seek?" "Yes my sister says, But you cant see them. They will always see you and listen to you if you talk to them But they cant talk back, Kinda like Evash ( my nephew). You can talk to him But he cant talk back." Laryssa says "Ok mama." My sister says "Wanna know who else is an Angel?" Laryssa Says WHO? My sister says "Tata is angel." My niece says "NO you silly Goose! TATA is at home mama." My sister says Ok. And left it at that. Its day by day, and one she will understand. It crushes me, I weap here. I feel so bad for them. I dont what to do nor say. I spend the night at my sisters last night, and when everyone was up except my niece I walked into her room, and layed with her tears rolling down. I kept on wispering to her " Im sorry hunny, I'm so so sorry" I kissed her forhead and I got up. I couldnt let her see me weap. My sister is doing very well. Yes it Is her X hubby, But he was with our family for 10 years. He was a good father. I need to get some tissues... Its funny how Life takes us by surprise ya know? In that ONE SECOND, everything can change....

Oh hun I am so sorry your family is battling with this so close to the holidays. Anytime is never good, but the holidays make it twice as rough. The children will adapt, I know that is hard to hear but they are more resiliant than we give them credit for. One day they will wish they had their Dad around. I can also understand why you are upset as well. Sometimes people are in our lives for such a short period of time yet they touch our lives with little things they do. Just keep thinking of how he is in heaven. I lost my Dad 3 years ago to suicide and it was totally unexpected so I can totally relate to the comment that in one second everything can change. Suzanne

OMG!!!! My heart goes out to you all at this time!!! I will keep your family in my prayers. I am so sorry!! Hugs and Prayers Judy

I am so sorry for your loss. Prayers and {{{HUGS}}} being sent your way....

Kim, God has a special heart for children, especially orphaned children. I know they still have their mom, but I believe God will look after them as a father, until they are grown. I will pray for your neice and nephew and I hope your family will find happy things to remember through all the hard spots. Wendy

Kimberlina, I can relate to your family----in Nov 2001 my sons were in a auto accident---and my oldest son then 20yrs old was killed also his brother who turned 16 in the hospital has had 13 surgies and is still recovering from the accident----they were hit by a drunk driver at 11am in the morning (a woman driver whom did even have a scratch on her) I was at work when the call came in both at different hospitals-----it was and has been a nightmare ever since especially for my son whom now is 21---trying every day to live a normal life with out his brother, but with Gods strength we survive. My though are with you and your family--- try to be strong for them they will need it!!! Gods Blessing this holiday season Marie

I am so sorry for your loss. I will keep you and your family in my prayers. Karen

I will be praying for your whole family. Especially this time of year that loss is felt so much. The kids will miss daddy but will adjust in time. I lost my beloved daddy when i was 6. I still miss him today but did grow up having a happy life with good memories of him. May GOd be with you and your whole extended family during the coming days.