Surgery tomorrow=finally scared!

My surgery is tomorrow and up until now, I thought I'd done pretty well. A few emotional moments here and there, but nothing like this. I'm excited yes, but I'm finding it hard to breathe (my anxiety). I'm half tempted to chicken out, but know that I would be making the biggest mistake of my life. One of my biggest regrets (aside from not making sure I had lobster drown in butter one last time ) is that I didn't take time to make wls friends. Perhaps then I could have someone there to let me know just how it's going to be. My husband will be there, and is supportive, but he's not been there done that. I've posted here occasionally, but hadn't had time to get to know anyone here to swap stories with either. So here I am all day today thinking that this is possibly the last day I will see any of my family again. I'm mainly concerned about my children, and I get sad to think of them being sad without me. Does everyone think about there immortality just before? Or am I just a morbid thinker?

Of course you're scared. We all have crazy thoughts just before. It means you are alive and want to live. Think what life will be like a hundred pounds from now. The beginning is going to be rough. Be prepared for anything. Once you get used to how to think about food you will be on easy street. Follow the program and you will be fine. kp

Shawn this is totally normal! I went through the same thing, so I purposely scheduled my surgery for the Monday after I finished final exams so that I COULDNT freak out about it becuase I was freaking out about exams....but nevertheless when Sunday night came....I had some good drugs from my doc. I also have anxiety issues and just couldn't breathe !!! My doc okay'd xanax I think is what I took - and it really helped. Having never had surgery before I was terrified of being put under and not waking up...and what my special needs son would do without me- and how would my husband be able to keep everything together if something bad happened???? Everything is going to be just fine. You have chosen a great surgeon, in a respected hospital with knowledgeable and caring professionals! Yes it's scary. I actually - well, let me share this story with you. I thought they would be sedating me before they got me to the OR... only to find out that yes, they gave me some sedation, but I would actually have to get onto the OR table myself! Well... I think I passed out becuase I dont remember anything after they told me that and wheeled me out into the hallway on the way to the OR. The next thing I knew I was in a hospital room with my mom and my hubby and OY my back was killing me! Musta been the table. No pain from my surgery.... until later that is. But it wasn't nearly has horrible as I had imagined. You're going to be great! If you need someone to actually talk to - please feel free to give me a call, I will send you my number in a personal message (check your inbox at the top of this page). I'm taking the special needs kids shopping this afternoon, but I'll be done by 3:30. God bless you sweetie! I even wondered the morning of and thought about calling it off becuase i was so scared. You are NOT alone!!!! HUGS HUGS HUGS! Sydney

Well, my surgery is tomarrow to at noon, and I have had thoughts of bad things but I have not drowned myself in them. I have had 3 c-sections and came out fine, so that is what I think about, my hubby will be there to drop me off and then he is going back home to be with kids, and then i will see him in the morning. Good luck and I will think of you and I hope you will do the same. Where and when is your surgery, it would be cool if you where at same hospital.

I know that fear.... I was second guessing myself right up until they gave me the happy juice shot right before they wheeled me into surgery. My husband was there with me and the staff was wonderful. Before you know it you will be awake and it will be over. I am just a week past my 3 month mark and I am down 61 pounds, 1/2 way to my goal! It is not easy, the first month I went through a mourning for my best friend. FOOD. But I saw my daughter last week for the first time and she was so amazed. She hadn't seen me this small since she was 8 yrs old. She is 25 now. I can walk 5 miles now. I couldn't walk 2 blocks before. I CAN RUN!! I am off of my blood pressure medication, off of 2 of my RA medications. I feel great. It will all be worth it in the end. I have gone from a size 24 to a size 16 in 3 months. I will be thinking of you and let me know when your out of the hospital. I am here for you. Good luck and do something to get your mind occupied onto something else.

Shawn, I can try to come up and see you. I work at Harper, and he's welcome to contact me also. Jeanne

Hi Shawn you will be in my thoutsall day tomarrow we all go throu it I am glad I had it done it was a year ago In Sept of 05 I lost 153 pounds and am so happy you will do good I had my WLS in Detrot and had no one there I was in the hospital for two days think good thoughs!!!! A WEIGHT LOSE LOSE FRIEND MARY JO

Hi Shawn I am going to send you my phone number, call me. I know exactly how you feel, i tried to back out the day of surgery until my husband yelled at me for it. He had to listen to me whine and complain for a year about the insurance denials and how bad i wanted this. He reminded me how awful i felt and all the times i told him i would die if i didnt do it. I was supposed to be at the hospital at 6 am, and my surgeon called me at 630 wondering where i was. I finally gave in and went. when they wheeled me into the o.r. i told my husband to be good to my kids and make sure they are happy and let them know how much i loved them. I was horrified that i wouldn't wake up. The first two months are the hardest, you have to learn how to live and eat. After that it was a way of life and there was no turning back. Life now is nothing i could have ever imagined pre op. I am happy, fun, and have more confidence than i ever have. You need a friend who has been there. I'm here for you and will guide you and keep you on track. Just call me. Hugs Linda