Having a hard time

Hey Annette, Long time no post!! LOL! At this time of year all of us pre fatties think of food. Holidays are the biggest eat fest of the year. Cookies, candy, chips and dip YUM!! I am making myself hungry!! It is really really hard now to be good. We have been out of surgery long enough to want and be able to start up bad habits. This is my suggestion. I was having trouble with eating wrong foods and I was feeling so bad about it that I was even going to extremes and dabbling with bulemic behavior. It was becoming an addiction. So what I did was throw out EVERYTHING in my house that was bad that I should not eat. I bought healthy alternatives and I refused to go out of the house to purchase the foods I should not have! I have so far not done too bad. I did give in here at Thanksgiving a little, but I think it is ok once in awhile for us to indulge if we don't overdo everyday. My kids eat healthier and I do too this way. I hope this helps, but you can also talk to your nutritionist and see if what you have been eating is really as bad as you think. Sometimes we aren't really eating such bad choices, but we feel like we are eating alot because we got used to the post op teenie tiny portions and have no idea what a real portion is suppossed to be. After so long post op, it is expected that we eat more, but it is a scary transition time for us. I too have had some trouble with this. Good luck and lots of love, Wendy

Hey Wendy, It's been a long time. Nice to see your smiling face again. Part of this is what I'm eating. Thank God I can't have sugar products ~I dump really bad on them. I can however eat chips and the like with no problem. I never cared for chips pre-op. Now I crave them. I am trying my best to stay away from them. I've gone an entire day chip free now (I had three Dorito's yesterday). I just have to get it out of my system and fight the urge to eat them. I have spent a lot of time with my nutritionist over the last couple of months. She mentioned anexoria (sp?) a couple of times to me and said there may be some signs of it there. My not eating turned out to be something totally different though. It was medical and not in my head (as some people tried to tell me~not my nut though she was trying to help me and actually talked to my surgeon). It's really not so much as what I eat as it is how much I eat. I was eating until I felt very over full, and downright sick. I am doing much better since I posted this. All of the support I've gotten had been incredible. Now I'm thinking it's not just me I'm letting down when I eat like this, it's also my surgeon, my medical team, my support groups, friends, family and everyone that has helped me to get to where I am today. I'm just going to take it one day at a time, and if I have to I'll take it one minute at a time. This big picture of me hanging on the fridge seems to help. I do not ever want to look like that again~NOT EVER!!! Are you still dabbling with bulimic behaviors? Please don't do that. It is not a good thing to do and can cause some real problems with your health. Take care of yourself Wendy. I don't want to see you get sick. Love you. God bless you, Annette

I know what helps me a little, someone used the word Sabotage. Don't sabotage yourself. Your doctor painted you a Mona Lisa which is very valuable, don't rub your fingers across the wet paint.

Hi Susan, The problem is my paint has dried lOl. Jut kidding. There are a couple of smudges on my canvas but if I'm very careful I think they can be made to look like a part of the original work of Art. (Art is my surgeons first name lOl). Thank you for the advice Susan. This art work has been very valuable to me. I must use caution and take care of it properly. God bless you, Annette