Help... Halloween Candy is EVIL!!!

Ok... So my church did a big outreach for Halloween and one of the things we did was pass out bags of candy. We bagged about 1500 bags of candy, we ended up with some candy leftover and so we allowed the Volunteers to take one bag of candy. At the time I thought I would get it to have at the house for my neices when they come over. WHY WOULD I DO THAT TO MYSELF?!?!?!!? Now I haven't gone CRAZY... but I did eat 2 reeses cups and some M&M's! (in the course of 2 days) I am beating myself up and I don't know if I should be. I am finding that with this surgery the guilt of eating the wrong thing is so much more overwhelming than before the surgery. I know it seems crazy to beat myself up over eating a few peices of candy... But it's almost like I feel like a failure and I can't seem to shake it! Does anyone else feel this way when you eat something that you shouldn't? Do you ever get to the point where you just relax and realize that even skinny people eat candy from time to time? The worst thing is that now I know, my pouch will tolerate sugar with no problems what so ever!! GREAT!!!! Also... The candy has been thrown out!!! LOL Kathy

Kathy, I just went through the same thing.. I posted on my surgery date board my same struggle. Over yesterday and Halloween night I had 3 fun size snickers. Ouch! You are right about the guilt.. it's amazing. I actually sat and contemplated for a long time why I did that after all I've gone through. It's an addiction for sure and it proved that I still have a lot of mental things to work on. Granted, before surgery there is no way I would have stopped at 3 bite size snickers in one sitting let alone over 24 hours, so I am thankful for that.. but I know there are some on here who would claim to look at that stuff and stick there noses right up at it and walk away. not the case for me. I am thankful that I know I can have a small treat once in a while.. it helps me to not feel deprived, but it's also so dangerous because I can see how people can put weight back on once you get further out.. Let's just keep praying for each other and asking for wisdom when it comes to food choices. This is still going to be a life-long journey even with the tool of this surgery! I'm with you, Kathy!!! We need to forgive ourselves and keep going. I'm glad to know I"m not the only one who had/has this struggle!!!! Blessings, Kim

I'm not beating myself up and you shouldn't either. Think of it like this....you didn't eat the whole bag of candy. You used restraint and good judgement and only had a few pieces. That shows growth and that you have made a change in your life. You are fine! A few pieces over a few days is not going to kill you! Stacey B

Amen sister! I detest Halloween!!!! I am 5 days from surgery Kathy and I just went to see my surgeon one more time before the 7th. he said that after surgery and when my weight is gone, that eating anything I wish is ok as long as its a bite or two. NOT a whole piece of cake or a whole brownie. I don't think your work has gone to hell in a hand basket because of what you ate. Moderation is the key. Satan has a funny way of doing these things to us. Guilt comes from the enemy when it is not a sin that you committed. Candy is not a sin...even in the wls world. And by the way......I had no candy. First time in years. I am on this liquid diet thing anyway and that consititues a solid. Hope this helps you and God bless you and I admire the work you have done to change your life. Hope I am as successful.

ok, here's the thing, before surgery when we went "off the wagon" we'd beat ourselves up, feel like dirt, give up and start back in on the bad habits. NOW we have a tool that helps us, we have proven we can lose weight, we feel better about ourselves and if we have a small slip, we can lift our heads high and get back on track. there's no reason to beat yourself up or start a downward spiral. BE PROUD that you only had a few and are now thinking about yourself, your well being, your self esteem and your health and are doing what you need to do for yourself. Be strong, be proud and be happy!

Kathy, you read my mind. I had a Twizzler out of my son's candy bowl for breakfast (with my protein bar) and have been kicking myself all day. I too have just found that I can eat a pretty good amount of sugar without dumping. It's a scary thing, because I think fear was what was stopping me from eating it before. Thank God I can now realize that it's all on me and my judgement now....and just because I can eat sugar doesn't mean I will. The first few months after surgery were indeed the "honeymoon". Now I don't fill up as fast and every day there are bad choices staring me in the face. I'm so glad that *most* of the time I can ignore the bad stuff and eat what's right for me. Thanks for posting what a lot of us were feeling. I just can't wait to see what Thanksgiving and Christmas will be like........ Brenda

Thanks Everyone for the wonderful responses. You guys are the BEST!!! Kathy