Mixed emotions,growing tired

I just need to vent here! I am so tired of hearing, why are you doing this? You must hide it well Jackie because you don't even look like you need that! OM GOODNESS! I know what Jackie needs shouldn't that be all that matters, now I do have an awesome support system just check out my profile I mention them. But the ones who one have been thin all their lives and have never had to worry about a darn thing they put in their mouth drive me looney! I guess I am a little frazzled and maybe nervous I am 12 days from surgery. WOW! I am excited one minute scared the next. I am going at lunch to the health food store here and she is getting some samples of protein drinks, pudding, even cake!! I will post when I have tried them. Sorry this is so long, I needed to vent! Jackie SE MI

Them - "Why are you doing this??? It's dangerous. You could die. Why don't you just eat like you had surgery? Me - "I'm sorry. I can't talk now about it. I have to go to a funeral." Them - "Oh,,, I'm sorry. Who died?" Me - "I haven't decided yet." It'll sut'm right up. kp

Thank you KP you are the awesome one!

Hi Jackie, You are on the same page as me, "You are tall! Why are you doing that you are big boned, Why do that to your self. Well I said for ME and ME and MY Family and if they do not understand then it goes back to I AM DOING THIS FOR ME TO LIVE.!!! My surgery was 9/05/06 and I am so glad I did it it is not a cake walk but a life style change I am 38lbs down and still taking one day at a time. Hang in there you can do it. CValentine

Hey there pretty lady! You are doing fabulous! Talk to you soon.... Carey

Thank you so much for the positive reinforcment! They just don't understand. I am the one who carries this weight around every day. I hurt darn it and I wanted to say the other word but I am being good. 38lbs in a month WOW that is awesome, I will definately feel better if I get down 38 lbs in a month and a few days. Thanks again and take care! Jackie

This is your deal. You have to make up your mind. They can talk and ask questions but it does no good to try and move you off your course. It just makes you hassle over stuff you don't have to bother with. You know the risks - infection, pneumonia, DVT, obstruction, severe scaring and chronic pain,,,, and death. Lesser complications include stricture, bleeding, seroma, hernia, diarrhea, lactose intolerance etc,,,,, I had some who were really concerned that I might die. My sons were my biggest concern. I explained to both of them that although his mortality rate is extremely low my surgeon can't control everything and if my time is to come there is nothing I can do about it. My surgeon would take very good care of me and He would be watching. I had my dad in the room with me telling me "you're doing the right thing, Mac" and I was alright. You'll be fine. kp

oh yeah that reminds me, i saw your surgeon yesterday, he said to tell you to go have a pb sammich and make sure the chopper's ready.

Good thing I know that post is a direct response to KP. You boys! I swear, I do swear. See my profile I wrote a blog entry today. Thanks for always being there for me and making me smile. Toodles another soccer night. Jackie SE MI Oh the lady at the health food store gave me samples of butterscotch pudding (protein) from www.matol.com Check it out, I may become a distributor to get the stuff at cost. Let me know what you think of their program, I trust you KP Jackie

KP loves the pb. i got over the protein pudding once i could eat food. about three months out.