why do i just fall into all ways

When I get stressed, I just starting eating crap I shouldn';t....just to hurt myself and those around me. And I drink. I am a mess. i don;t want to live anymore. Why did I have this surgery? For what?

you had it to give yourself help and hope. it's just a start. there's more work to do. give yourself a break, forgive yourself and do what you need to do to feel better about yourself. take one step. you'll feel better and will slowly find the strength to take the next step. take it easy, take it as you can handle it. be kind to yourself. don't give up.

Tracey, You don't sound well. Maybe you should see your doctor. My daughter suffers from depression/bipolar and she starts to sound like this when she needs a med. check. A chemical imbalance may be making you feel so miserable. Don't hesitate, call someone who can help you get through this. Do this for yourself and for those who love and care about you.

I wish there was something I could say to make things better. I am not on that side of WLS as of yet, however I do have bouts of depression and it is very important that you recognize things like that and maybe even see a doctor. Even when I am well, I still see my doctor at least once a month. Just to say I am OK and things are going well. I share the good and the bad with my doctor. It may be something to think about. Dont' wait until you get worse though. There is only one you and no body can ever replace you, take care of yourself now. Good Luck and God Bless! Shawn McGeachy

Tracey, Hey...I felt that way too, more than people realized. And I began to understand that we chose this surgery to LIVE and to LIVE Longer..........and you should take a hard look at what things are great in your life, and understand that sometimes, we do eat something we shouldn't, or something that makes us sick, and that is part of the healing process. I myself still continue to eat things I'm not suppose to -- like sugar. I can eat things that don't make me dump, but, I realized that it is only causing my tool not to work and I don't lose weight. Find your inner happiness by looking at the GOOD things that you have accomplished in life and stop making yourself feel guilty because you ate something you shouldnt have. Perhaps you might have depression or some kind of panic-anxiety disorder- as I do and I am aware of it and manage it as best as I can. But in the same sense, I also know how hard this change in eating can be, because I still learn every day that I can't eat that one more bite or I get sick. I looked for ways to channel my stress and found horses were the way for me to bring fulfillment into my life and not be stressed. Find what works for you and channel your stress into something that brings you happiness and joy and your stress will lighten immediately. I promise you that. You do want to live and you know you do, for life is a gift from God above and we shoud all relish the world that HE has offered and take great advantage of the things out there. It's a small world, and it's as wonderful as YOU want it to be. I hope this helps you, knowing you are NOT alone. If I can help any other way, please dont hesitate to email me. Stacey W

This surgury is a total change of life style a drastic lifetime change. Some times people have trouble dealing with change especially a major change like this. Try talking to the person who did your phych evaluation or if they dont do counsoling ask your surgeon office to recommend someone who deals with the issues we face. There is nothing wrong with asking help in dealing with problems we might have. It takes courage to go to someone and say I need help with this. BE GOOD TO YOU.

Thanks to everyone *****plied and was so supportive. I am doing better, with all my WLS friends behind me. I am going to try and look for the positive things in my life, and try to ignore the negative. Thanks again. Tracey