Bouts of Depression

I'm one month out and I am going through things that I can't explain. I wake up at 3:30 in the morning and sit there and cry...for no reason. I get mad and angry for no reason. I don't want to talk to anyone. I don't want to go to my 1 month appt or any support groups. I don't care if I ever go to my Dr.'s office ever again and I don't know why. What is wrong with me? Why am I questioning myself about having this surgery? It's like I'm mad at myself for having it. I'm ok when I'm at work..I put on my smile and go with the flow but at home I'm a wreck. My 7 year old told me that I'm ignoring him...how terrible of a mom am I? We took before pictures and then pictures at 1 month and I couldn't see any difference. I've 101 lbs and I don't see a difference. I have a hard time getting all my meds and food in. I get my water in and that's about all some days. Anyone else have this problem?

Stacey, I read an interesting post yesterday someplace. I knew about the problem with losing my "best friend." However, they said it's importent for women to remember that hormones are stored in fat, and when you start really losing, your hormones can go crazy. Marie

Stacey: I remember going through the same things you described. I think the depression is a common thing right after surgery. Our bodies are so out of whack...I didn;t want to do anything either. Talk to your doctor and see if you need an anti-depressent for a while. Keep in touch Tracey

Stacey, Try to be good to yourself.. don't be so hard on yourself. I have felt the exact feelings you are feeling now and I'm a little over 3 months out. I also had to stop my anti-depressents after surgery because I could not stand to crush them and take them with anything... so although I'm happy to say I am only on vitamins right now, no blood pressure meds, no anti-depressants, no GERD medication.. I have had to deal with a lot of emotional ups and downs. I tend to go into a shell as you describe and not want to see/talk/go anywhere, but I am doing a lot of praying and a lot of self-talk...knowing I made the right decision for myself. I no longer have sleep apnea, (I barely even snore any more!) I am much more comfortable in my skin and although this was the most difficult thing I've EVER done.. I know for my health that it was a good thing. I was depressed when I was at my highest weight and also felt overwhelmed with the possibility of a shorter life and no help for my obesity. I now see a light at the end of the tunnel, and it's getting easier every week. Just hang in there, know that your hormones are wacky right now..be good to yourself. If you need medication, speak to your Doctor..it can do wonders if you can't deal with your depression alone. (and you don't have to!!!) Blessings, Kim

Stacey, This is normal and it will go away. Just hang in there. I have lost 270 pounds and sometimes I still don't see what everyone else sees. Your brain will eventually catch up. As long as you get your water in and meds don't worry so much about the food just try your best and that will get easier with time, also. Take care, Fran

Thank you for your response. I am just having a hard time. I also have this log book I am supposed to be tracking all my intake of food and meds in and I just can't do it. I can't. It makes me be even harder on myself than I already am. The Log is making me CRAZY!! LOL... I am supposed to bring this book with me to the Dr's and have a meeting with the nutritionalist and I just can't do it. I need to get over this...FAST! Stacey

Stacey, I know what your feeling. I am 3 weeks out and I realize I miss food and all the good feelings that go along with it.. I am learning to break that habit though ( I have to) I know for my health this was the best thing I could have done.. Are you losing weight? I went for 2 weeks and didnt lose a pound my body was just not going to give the weight up finally I did begin to lose again and I feel so much better.. Keep doing what you have to do to get through this tough stage I also have stopped taking a large dose of Prozac (for the last 10 years) and I know I am more short tempered and I want to spend some time alone. Keep us all informed I know when I post and I get some resposes it makes me feel good inside. We all know what your going through and I think it will get better. Your in my prayers Ann

I too posted on this a while back, and since then I have been taking Cymbalta, and it honestly is the first depression medication that I can say has made a difference for me. I will never go with out this. Ask your doc for more info on this medication to see if it is right for you too. I hope you start feeling better to becasue depressed is no place any one is happy to be at.