Poor Me Syndrome

Yup, I've fallen into AGAIN!!!! Poor me!! Poor me!!! It hits Monday night when my dh leaves for the week and I KNOW that not only do I have to sleep alone, but I have to do EVERYTHING alone. Cook, clean, deal with the kids, keep the kids busy in these last days of summer, break up the kid's petty arguing, on and on and on ................. and I know that these are the things that a good wife and mother should do, but today I just don't care. I want to QUIT!!!! My birthday is this week (ugh) and we were supposed to go to an amuzement park with the Michigan wls yahoo board. We can't go because we just don't have the money. OK, I can deal with that. The kids need clothes and supplies in order to go back to school. I was supposed to go to lunch tomorrow with another wls group. My dh gave me money so I'm all set to go - NOT!!! Yesterday I had to take my dd in for an emergency dentist apt. While sitting in the waiting room with my other kids, I look down and my youngest sons shoes are 1/2 GONE across the top of his foot. NO SHOE there at all. I can't believe I didn't notice this before!!! So I asked the other kids if their shoes had any problems and my other son lifts up his shoe and he can pull back the entire soul of the shoe about 1/2 way down. OMGSH - they've REALLY played hard this summer. So there went my money. No lunch for me tomorrow. Then Friday is my birthday - what's the plan??? Our school has their first home foot ball game that night!! My oldest son plays in the marching band - so that's how I'll be spending my birthday!! Next week is our 19th wedding anniversary.....but my dh is gone, I won't even see him until four days after our anniversary and it wouldn't matter anyway cuz every penny we have needs to go for getting these kids set for school!! So I'm in **** poor mood today!!! BUT I'M NOT GOING TO TAKE IT OUT ON MYSELF BY EATTING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I refuse to fall into that trap again. Besides, I know it will only make me feel worse!! Laurie - wishing for a selfish kidless life today!!!

I'll trade you. Anytime. I have no kids, no husband and spend most of my days sitting in my apartment with my cat or outside walking alone. I often go out to the farm and sometimes ride someones horse, sometimes I sit 3 hours there board to death. And I wonder what I am doing there when that happens, like last night. 1. I'd trade you to have kids. I cannot. 2. I'd trade you to have a husband, 19 years at that, I have never been married. 3. I'll take your shoes any day (and your kids) so I have more shoes in my closet than just 3 pairs. 4. I'll give you a big big hug and tell you that those poor me's are common in all of us and that just by venting here helps to expel it out of our system and makes us feel better. At least for me, I do feel better when I post it. As for the eating, I have been doing poorly lately, eating stuff I'm not suppose to, and I don't walk as much as I use to. And it's because I have 0 motivation. I'm still in that slump.....and I can't find my way out. Until I do, I am just floundering in my pity here, so you are NOT alone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! One note: find one hour each day to do something for YOU. listen to your favorite cd really loud (or not so loud).............maybe take a warm bubble bath and have candles everywhere, and then there is always the "we can celebrate when you get home" and start planning that perfectly romantic evening!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My dear hugs to you Laurie and know that you're poor me is not standing alone today. I'm on the left side of you holding up my "PITY PARTY HERE" sign too. You'll be ok..........you are strong, and WE ARE WOMEN HEAR US ROAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Big Hugs back at you!!! Thanks!! I don't usually waste the time to whine like this, but today I guess I just needed it. Laurie

Well hopefully you'll feel better........pretend we're sitting on a tropical island, drinking ice tea with lemon wedges and BIG UMBRELLAS and all the people from here are with us having a great volleyball tournament!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Just imagine!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It can be part of your dreams today to make you smile! Hugs and glad to make you smile!

I don't know if this helps at all, but all Mom's have days like this Laurie!!! "Calgon, take me away!!!!" moments! I had many! But the kids always seemed to get in the bathroom just when I'm sinking in the tub of bubbles and hop in too!! This too shall pass! It is overwhelming at the time, but someday you will look back at this moment and think what wonderful, hard, glorious, horrible, awesome times these were! I am sending you a HUGE HUG right now! Theresa

Laurie darling!! Hey sounds like your going through one of those tough spots. It always happens all at once. It seems like life throws everything at you at once. If you can find time next week I would love to take you out for lunch. I have been feeling a little trapped myself. My treat (it's not like we eat much LOL) and we can bi*** all we want!! Email me and maybe we can come up with something. This board is so important for us all, and we should be able to lean on each other when things are rough. As for the Anniversary, many times I could not celebrate on the date of something so I try to make a special day later on and it does not have to cost a lot of money either. One year my dh and I went to Kensington Park and had a romantic picnic and walked in the woods together. It was really nice to spend time together relaxing. Hey hang in there, better times are ahead. Wendy

Oh Wendy - You're an angel!!!!!! I'd love to get out and have someone to whine with. Thanks for the wonderful offer. And I've definately got plans for when he gets home!! *wink* *wink* (and it won't take any money either) Laurie

Oh Laurie, i am right there with you on this one. My kids go back to school monday too, but only this year they have to have uniforms, we don't have any of the things they are making the kids wear. And they have to have solid black tennis shoes, we don't have that either. We are so broke and behind on bills, I can't buy it and feel like a failure. After they violate the dress code three times they will be suspended. My daughters health is getting worse and we have had to go to different docs like twice a week at 20 bucks each plus prescriptions. tomorrow we get the ct results, and i am praying they have an answer. I have looked everywhere for a job with no results and it looks like i will be going to a temp agency to see what i can find....i just hope it isn't a factory job, that will kill me with my asthma. On top of all of this, tomorrow is my husbands birthday and the kids feel bad cause they can't get something for daddy. My life just sucks! I don't fall into eating too much when i'm depressed, i do the opposite and don't eat. How did everything go with your daughter at the dentist? I hope everything gets better for you. Hugs Linda

Oh yes sister - we're in the same boat. (that'd be the one with the big hole in the bottom) LOL Rebekah's dentist apt went well. She got one tooth totally knocked out, I was afraid that there was a piece left that would have to be surgically removed. The one that was knocked loose, he just took out. It needed to come out anyway. I guess I was wrong and they were baby teeth after all - so that was an answer to prayer!!! I would feel horrible if she had lost a perm moller!! And we would of had to pay for a bridge for her. UGH - that's one expense I don't need. Well, all we can do is look at it this way - this too shall pass!!!! I know it will, and my mood will pass as well. Laurie

Laurie, May I just say HOORAY to you for using that money that you really wanted to spend on lunch to get the things that your kids need! I am a teacher, and waayy too often I see children starting the school year in clothes that are several sizes too small (or big), shoes that are falling apart, no jackets, or school supplies, or socks..... And meanwhile, mom and dad seem to have the money to go the the Nascar races, buy their cigarettes, and drink at the bar. Thank you thank you thank you for being the responsible parent. It will come back to you eventually. Pat yourself on the back and know that you are appreciated!!!! Bekki PS Step away from the snacks. You are looking GREAT!!!!!!