My change of heart.

OK guys. I have been struggling with this little demon over the last few months now. You know the one, it says "Hey, no matter how much weight you have lost, you are still a fat ugly cow!" It also says things like, "You are no good and don't deserve to be happy." My body image and self esteem, have really been bad. Well, this weekend I spent some time with my family, it was a heart changing experience. I actually ran on the playground with my kids. I climbed the rock wall and slid down the slide while my children cheered me on!! We walked a mile in the park with the dogs, without breaking a sweat, and then later on biked 2 miles together in the country!! My husband couldn't keep his hands off me this weekend and I looked around at out beautiful new home in the country and sat on my deck and it hit me that life is good! Nothing is better than what I have right now!! I decided to quit feeling sorry for myself, and start appreciating what I had at the moment. God has blessed me more than words can say and I know eventually the skin will come off. Also my mom said something to me that hit me deep. She said "you know Wendy, one day we all get old anyway and the wrinkles and sags come no matter how hard you fight it!" I never wanted to be a vain old woman anyway! I always admired the beautiful women who allowed themselves to grow older with grace and be who they were. I know this was long, but I wanted to share this with you all in case any of you had that same demon visiting you too. Tell him to take a hike, life is good! Wendy

Thanks for sharing this Wendy. I am glad you had this realization! Good for you meeting your demon head on! Enjoy your life and all that it has to offer. Leeanne

Wendy, What a powerful transformation you shared! Thank you for doing that. I have had my ups and downs, and still look in the mirror today, a mere 162 lbs, down 148 lbs since when I moved here, still feel fat, dealing with a family that still controls my life from far away, and wondering why on earth I have to wait 2 years for a tummy tuck when I'm 47 years old, single, no kids and NOT GETTING ANY YOUNGER!!!!!!!!! My whole world has been a domino effect of good and bad, no matter what. But the one thing I did notice, is my change. Like you said , "t was a heart changing experience. I actually ran on the playground with my kids. I climbed the rock wall and slid down the slide while my children cheered me on!! We walked a mile in the park with the dogs, without breaking a sweat, and then later on biked 2 miles together in the country!! "...... made me feel warmed inside ..... so I thank YOU for sharing what you have accomplished and what YOU see going on. It takes a real close look sometimes to really see what WE have come from and are able to do now, and how that vision takes us to a better place in our hearts. So thank you from the bottom of my heart for helping me feel less pity on my own self. Stacey W

Wendy.......OMG until I went and looked at your profile I didnt know who you were. Feel good about yourself, you are looking absolutely marvelous Keep up the great work. Hugs, Stacy

AMEN to ALLLLLLLLLLL Of that Sister!!!!!!!!!!!!!

God has given us a great gift!!! ENJOY.... You look FAB-U-LOUS!! Keep it up...

Wendy, you have come along way and you are so beautiful. I am struggling with the same thing now also. I want plastic surgery, but then again I am 54 and should age gracefully, but on the other hand I feel 34 and want to look 34. I too am starting to accept my body as it is. With clothes on I look and feel wonderful, what more could I ask for. Being able to accept oneself is indeed a big ackomplishment. Take care, Janice