Just check in... still alive...

Over the summer my son had gotten himself in a bit of trouble. But that has been cleared up and hopefully will go away. So with that and things being as hard as they have been with my grandfather and great uncle, it seems that I spend 3 days a week taking them to doctor visits and checking up on them. Grandfather was diagnosed with Advanced Parkinsons Disease just after I had surgery and fallen down broke his humerus bone and fractured 3 cervical vertibra. His brother my Great Uncle has also been diagnosed with Alzheimers and has progressed more and more each month on top of having a pacemaker installed in December that is maxed out. He is in the adolesent stage... In reality, my uncle will pass before my gpa cause of the heart. We (the family) decided along with both of them to move them to an assisted living facility here in Sterling Heights, and the staff are GREAT, and they do a great job of keeping the family informed of anything so I can keep up on the Medical aspect. I myself, well with school I am taking my CPT Coding class 2 nites a week, one online class that I am falling behind in plus trying to figure out how to get more help in paying for school. I spend late nites up doing homework and trying to keep it together with school. Coffee and Protein bars... but I have been a grazer on crackers also... Not to mention my weightloss. We found out that I have a SMALL opening and in reality the dr says its a good thing. will prevent me from ever being a gulper, non chewer and fast eater. Stretching is NOT reccommended. So on day when I am not THINKING ABOUT MY EATING WHEN DOING IT, I dont chew well, food gets stuck and I spend the rest of the day vomiting and not being near 50%. I have found that protein bars are my best friend, in my purse and in my school bag (met rx, payday, south beach, pure protein, slim fast protein). I try to eat 3 a day if possible that is a min of 45 grams of protein, plus what ever else I eat that day for meals. I am a bit disappointed in myself cause I have not lost any weight in months, and June will be 1 year....But I hope with the summer comming up I will be going for walks more often than the 35 minutes of pacing up and down the halls at school 2 days a week (equal 1/2 mile each day). I have found myself pulling away from just about every club, organization, and alot of friends during this time. The stress isnt helping and sleep....lol.. what is that.. it seems that the INSOMNIA I have suffered from most of my life has really gone to the dogs as warned with post op. Most drugs OTC or RX dont seem to work. I am stuck at 250-255, I bounce in there. My surgeon says I am doing well and my labs have been good mostly. I did make it to a WLS "liv-lite" dinner in January, as my social function, but was home early and back to the books. I hate to be the whiner, and I cant stand listening to them either, seems I have found myself in that catch 22 zone of life, DAMNED IF I DO, DAMNED IF I DONT. I hope that things will take a turn for the more calmer by June when I get to take the summer off school. I will try to make it to the board and check in or update my profile. I just want life to GO MY WAY AND STOP PUTTING ME INTO A TAIL SPIN AT EVERY TURN...... I know... tooo much to ask for.... Ok.. I am done ranting, whining, and acting like a 6yo who lost her green hair scrunchy.... (oh, BTW, the hair is doin great, not much of a loss, and I dont need to get it thinned out anymore, its perfect) Paige HUGZ & KIZZ TO YOU ALL....

hi paige i am glad to see you back here. we have missed you here.sounds like you have been through a lot lately. i was reading your post and i was wondering maybe there is a support group in your area you can go to. i know the psychiatrist who did my evaluation has a weght loss surgery support group that meet maybe you could find something like that to go to or maybe the place you had your surgery at might have a support group to go to, or maybe you could meet with some people in your area that have had surgery maybe they could help you.i am sorry about all the stuff you are going through and hope things get better for you soon.also it sounds you have a some depression also and i have that problem also and my pcp put me on lexapro and it works good. also sometimes i take xanax when needed, you said you have a problem sleeping have you tried tylenol sleep aid or maybe your doc could prescribe you something to help you.and i was wondering about your weight loss you might be on a plateau and if you are your weight loss will start up agian. when you are on a plateau you can still be loosing inches. i hope this has helped and if ya ever need a shoulder to lean on remember we are here for you.

Thanks Penny. I was LOYAL in my support meetings after surgery up until this semester, I have class on nite of support meetings..... I am done next week with class for 2 weeks, and there is a support meeting while I am off.. so you know where I will be on the 29th... at that meeting.... Paige

I am a new post op 15 days and I am hoping to be at that support group meeting on the 29th it all depends what my schedule is I dont have my work schedule yet I go back to work on 3/27. I really hope we can meet if I am there it is nice to have friends who can relate to what I am going thru. I am happy to hear you are going to school I am hoping to go back to school in Jan next year when I have more money. Maybe I can help you loose more weight we can exchange ideas. Angie post op 2/21 356/ 328 today got weighed at surgeons office.