My sad drunken post

ok...so the Merlot will do it every time. So, I go to 220 with girlfriends and have some drinks. We meet some cool guys who entertain us for a while. I meet this cool woman named Carmen whos garage meets Carmen Harlans garage. She owns this mortgage company and lets me share her meatballs(I was drunk and starving). The guys pay lots of attention to us and one is a stock broker in Chicago. So, I come home to no one and feel pathetic. I have another glass of wine(why not right?) while I eat cold Thai out of the container cause I am still starving. The rice and 1 meatball I had for dinner just did not do it for me. Anyway, the point is I send my drunken text to Matt telling him he sucks and now I will try to sleep so I can work my ass off all day tomorrow. Sometimes life just isn't fair. My aunt lost her job today. My cousin is getting ready to lose her house because her husband worked for the Korex plant that just burnt down and her dad just died last week. My marriage is over becasue my husband sucks and all I can do is drink wine and complain. I guess things could be worse right? It is beddy bye time. You do not have to respond. I am sure I will regret this in the morning.

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Terri}}}}}}}}}}}}} Im so sorry you are having a rough time right now. Hang in there....you will survive this chapter of your life too. I could offer a bunch more cliches, but I know sometimes we just need to wallow in our own self pity.

Terri, I'm right there with you honey. Life sucks right now but it will get better a little bit every day. You have to make the choice to make it better girl. It's a long hard road but you are strong and so very capable!!! Remember that hon. you can call me anytime and we can vent this out together. do you have a headache this morning? drink some coffee and take 2 tylenol, that works for me. love ya, Susan

Teri, I know this is hard, but please be careful.

It's a process Terri. You're in mourning and you're angry. My divorce was .... geez - eons ago; something like 18 years ago. For me, I needed to go through anger (mine was over infidelity on his part) then mourning for the life I lost. Today I can honestly say I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO glad that I'm not married to him. Life with him would have been horrible. But I didn't feel like that at the beginning. For what it's worth, the anger left when I stopped loving him - and that takes a while. Just because you're divorcing doesn't mean you don't love him. It's a mountain of emotions and pain certainly sets on the top - for now. I'm glad you felt safe to post here. I'd echo Annette's comment of being careful - you don't want to hurt the pouch or let this cause you to fall back on old habits. Regardless of what you are going through, you deserve the best and your new you needs to stay. I guess I'm saying it's not worth self-destruction. I wish you the best Terri. And please don't feel bad - enough of us have been divorced from our prince charmings (or toads) to understand how you feel. Sheryl In the Zoo

I dont really know what to say but I'm here if you need me, I'm sending(((((hugs&))))) your way. I hope you feel better!

Terri, Please don't regret anything. It isn't easy going through what you are going through. It hurts and it sucks. It will get better in time. Even though you don't think so right now, believe me it does. (((((HUGS))))) Connie

I wish I could drink to forget whats happening in my life right now.I wont even start on that I could write a book. There is one good thing in my life right now and that is my first husband died.I divorced him over 20 years ago when I found out about his secret life.To make a long story short,He ended up having a stroke at age 54,I truely believe this was Gods punishment for what he had done.He suffered for the last 10 years and died on March h 8th of this year.He remarried and I had also but I was divorced just six months before he died.After he died I contacted Social Security and found out seeing I was 60 years old and wasn't married I was eligable for 71% of his benifits.Im now drawing $1340 a month,if he had a grave he would be turning over in it.he was creamated just a taste of what eternity will be for him.It will all work out in the end you are a strong person and matt has to be nuts for letting you get away.

Terri.. Only you can share meatballs with a stranger after a few glasses of Merlot.. and yet people question why I want to grow up to be you!!! NUMBER 1 you my dear are FAR from pathetic. PERIOD end of that discussion. NUMBER 2 right now Mattt does suck. Period end of that discussion. NUMBER 3 Life is not fair... Period, you know the rest You my darling are a beutiful, smart, witty woman. Right now things are suckie, sometimes life gets suckie... Soround yourself with friends and I know you can work through all of this. Wish I knew better what to say.... *hugs and a glass of Merlot* Erin

Erin said it best Terri! They all did. I feel for you! You know we are all her for you, no matter what. Big hugs! Theresa