not in the spirit this year

Hi All, I know that I have not posted in a while, but I just have not felt like myself. thats right you heard right, Mrs. Bigmouth is not herself. I just feel sad and I can not believe that tomorrow is Christmas. I am just not in the holiday spirit this year and I am not sure why. I mean I have no choice but to put on a Facade, because I have 3 kids and they are pumped, but I just do not feel happy this year. I have so much to be thankful for. But i am just not in the spirit this year and that bothers me, because I am very into Holidays and all. Any good advice? Please no Bashing, because as vocal as I usually am, i am not feeling it today. Merry Christmas Guys Adrienne