want to share this sad story

I used to go to the Lap Band Forum for a long time at the beginning of my journey, I stopped going because it was all new people and I wasn't getting any insightful information for my stuggles.  but anyway, there was a young girl who was doing so well, very informed, supportive, smart, and lost over 100 lbs. on the band, I read last week she was in hospital, and I thought oh, no "The Band"???  poor girl.  but this is what happend.  I cut and pasted this from her post.


Thank you all for the nice words.

I am just checking in because I love you all and really really appreciate all the texts, PMs, Facebook messages and e-mails.

The hardest part of this is that I am haunted by a photo of my ex during his suicide and that I had him on the phone when he did it so I heard him. Police have been extremely thoughtful.... both here in Minnesota and in Nevada, where he died. Their opinion is that my ex killed himself accidently. Based on the evidence, an officer believes he was trying to scare me very much but went too far and didn't have enough consciousness to save himself. I am devastated because the night before we had mostly agreed to try to work things out... we spent 8 hours on the phone discussing our issues.

I am sad, man, feel guilty and extremely pissed off. It helps to realize that this was probably an accident because I KNOW he would put me through listening to his death and seeing a photo. But in the end, that's what happened. He said in an email that he was killing himself because of me... but somewhere deep inside I will one day believe that it wasn't my fault.

I feel crazy right now. I've always had very good mindfulness of my emotions but right now I feel like I need a straightjacket.

WOW!  What can I say?  That's sad!

That's really messed up, so sad for her to have to live with that kind of guilt.  So was she in the hospital getting help for this?

wow, that's alot to have to deal with.  That poor girl.  Hope she gets to the stage soon and realizes no one kills themselves for someone else..they kill themselves for their own reasons.