I need some feedback

I am wondering, is it me, or what? I have been having food frenzy, even though, I missed one day of writing in my journal, I have been bouncing off the wall, I have never felt like this, I know I have been drinking 3 cups of coffee lately, I hadn't been drinking enough water, but, lately, I have had binges where I eat things I had never eaten, i ate a cookie with chocolate in it, I did confess my compulsive overeating to my husband, WHY? I am writing in my journal more now than I ever have. I am really thinking that something is really EATING AT ME, emotionally.

 I had problem with peanut butter, cheese, sneaking things & eating them. I am slowly improving. I am keeping fruit & yogurt & veggies, and 100 calorie pop corn in our home.  I hope to have some feedback to see what others, especially people that have had the RNY bypass.

 I started writing in my journal, WHY AM I SABOTAGING MYSELF?

 i also missed walking/exercising and I hadn't gone to swimming on Wednesday or today, I am going to get out & mow my lawn  or walk. I missed walking on Tuesday. So, thus far, this week, I missed exercising, Tuesday, and yesterday.

 As I was doing my laundry, I came across a jumper, and it's skimpy on me, so i have it hanging up, so that I can see it everyday. I also have the goal of commitment to my  KOPS/TOPS PARTNER for NOVEMBER, now on my REFRIG, so that I can SEE IT, every time I open the refrig.

 I did walk on Wednesday, 11,892 steps, and it took me 1 hour & 50 minutes to walk it.

 i am back on track, today, since eating a cookie this morning.

 I am going to think positive, and keep active, by moving & improving.

 i am very thankful that I have not stretched out my pouch, and don't plan on to, either.

 I am going out to mow my lawn, and not look back. I am taking 1 day at a time.

 I already know that I am a COMPULSIVE OVEREATER, yet striving for recovery:-)

 Supper:

6 oz mixed sauteed veggies (onions, zucchini, summer squash, kidney beans, chick peas) in olive oil in the oven\

3 oz boneless pork baked in the oven

 I am so thankful for people within my church that have been helpful to me, as well. I also find that what helps other people with their cravings could be leathal weapon for me, since I am a COMPULSIVE OVEREATER.

 Thanks for your time. It means so much

SWL,
Lynda

Hi  Lynda   it might be   time to go see the  dietician and the counselor  at  the nuts office.   There is a staying on track class.  and they do some real work at  finding out what makes you tick and self sabatage.

Try  not keeping   things you  shouldnt have in your house.   I have  trouble with twizzlers if i have them home so i dont buy them.  but   Looks like you  are figuring things out.

take care  and hope things get better for you soon

The Dietitian (Tama) signed me up for the class on November on Union Street. She thinks i need it, I Know I need it. Like I said to Ruth, I feel like I am a hypocrite, saying things & doing the opposite. I know better, but I do it anyway.

Now, I am on the right track, and I need to stay on it.

Thanks for writing back.

Lynda

Hi Lynda,
Having the cravings and giving in to the cravings is really hard for us not to do at times.  Reconizing that you are an overeater is part of the solution.  As you said....One day at a time. Stay focused on your goals.  Remind yourself constantly why you had surgery and why your life is better  now!  It can be a struggle, but come here for support or to your family/friends/Church/nut/whoever you feel can help you!   It's much easier when you aren't feeling alone in this!   (BTW....I make some "bad" choices at times too!  I just have to keep reminding myself that I am better than the decisions I sometimes make and go on from there!)

Good luck! and all the best to you!
Ruth

Thanks, Ruth, for sharing that with me. At times, I feel like I am a hypocrite, because I say things & do just the opposite. Yes, I am going to do better, and actually reach my goal. Right now, I weigh 233 3/4 lbs. i am determined to get off the 230 mark, and continue going downwards to Onederland.

Thank-you, again.

Lynda

I plan my meals ahead of time especially my snacks and measure them out first thing in the morning and set them aside.  This helps me from grabbing stuff right out of the bag or from over eating.  I bought the little 2 oz containers with lids (the kind that restaurants put dressing in) this way I can measure out peanut butter and other things that I can just grab and go.  I too use the 100 cal packs as it keeps me within limits.  I hope this helps.