Frustrated... and Happy...

I am frustrated with my weight! I have gained the weight I lost over the last few months, some might be water weight do to my period though...

I went and had a consult with Dr. Cobean today. He thinks that I am normal and that I have done great with everything that I have been through since Jan 06 when I had surgery. He is going to do a scope to make sure everyhing is going ok, but doesn't think that anything surgery wise is going to be needed. He is going to set me up with his center and some of the groups that they have there... I am hoping that now Im out of school and able to get moving again (no more LONG papers and research to do) I will be able to get moving again, back into Karate and LOOSE LOOSE LOOSE again...

Back on Track... thats my goal!!

Do you think that you are being too hard on yourself? Or are your goals realistic?  I am just asking because I think most of the time we are our own worst enemies, we beat ourselves up without stepping back and looking at the big picure. Recognizing how far we have come and where we are instead of focusing on some unreached goal. Good luck to you, I think you have done fabulous and you will do it if its what you really want.

I think that i am hard on myself, and I think that the little chat that I had with Dr. Cobean was great. He made me relize some of the things that I should have known all along, most of the women in my family (BOTH FATHER AND MOTHER SIDES) are over weight and not that that is an excuse to "give up" but it is a genetic reason that it is harder, even with surgery, to loose the weight. Also, I have lost 50% of my exess weight, AND KEPT IT OFF!! That in itself is amazing, and I know I can do better (to reach my goal not just the goals of the docs) once I get a handle on this BIG thing we call a life... hahaha

I am not stressing too much, just relaxing and trying to remember that I have come this far and what a ride it has been!!

I think you have done really well!  Glad Dr Cobean is going to go check you out, just in case.  You must be so excited that school is done!  I know I would be!  Congrats!  One day at a time!!!!!

Yes! I am very excited that school is done!! Its an AMAZING feeling knowing that I have done soooo much even with the opsticals in my life. I was talking to my mother, she has the same degree that I do, and she was telling me how proud she is of me and that I need to give myself more credit, and be proud of myself. (I have noticed that I get down on myself for a lot of things, and goals not met in the fashion that i had planned to... )

She reminded me of exactly what I am... A Mother, daughter, girlfriend, "Stephanie" to my boyfriends kids (and much better then their mother... long story), and now I have graduated AGAIN (have my associates degree and now my BS).... and that there is so much more to me then how much I weigh and how much I weight i have lost or want to still loose... its refreshing to think of myself in so many ways...