I'm Bored...

I never thought I would say that... but I am bored. If I try to do anything that takes any concentration I get tired.  I can't even read without my eyes getting heavy and I am sick to death of TV. I tried to sit out in the sun, too hot.  Went for a walk, but started to get tired and a little pain (don't want to take any pain meds, have to go to my PCP this afternoon).  The most I can stay awake is like five hours, and that is real work.  After about three I feel like I need a nap. 

Anyway, just thought I would check in.  It's been kind of quiet on here lately... the weather is getting better. Makes sense.

first of all, nothing wrong with sleep when your had such a big surgery as you did.  best thing to help you heal.  do you have any hobies?  I don't remember being bored, I went on my puter and made lists, organized my paperwork, junk drawers. slept, wrote letters to old friends. tried new recipes.  you'll be back to work before you knowit, so enjoy and relax.

I'm BORED too!  And I think I'm getting dehydrated again!  I don't want to go back to the hospital. 

I hear ya Kelly about the pain meds, I haven't been on any since last Saturday.  I hope it goes well with your PCP.

Did you get deydrated once already?  Be careful with that. I constantly carry around my jug of water or crystal light when I'm not trying to get down my four oz. of protein shake (which gets easier each day).  I mean I have hobbies, it's just that I can't focus. I asked my DH to set up my sewing machine and an extra table in the craft room so I could sew but he forgot.  I don't feel like scrapbooking right now, don't have the mental capacity yet.  But I can sew....

PCP visit went well, asked about some different meds and he was pleased my blood sugar has been under 100 since Tuesday. Also talked about birth control (not so much for babies but to keep that TOM under control so I don't get anemic). He was also pleased that I had lost 30 pounds since my last visit (which was May 1st....) hard to believe.

You are living on hardly any calories!  No wonder you have no energy!  Once you are able to eat/drink more, it will improve!  Our brain has a hard time adjusting to such a low carb/starvation type diet!  It WILL get better!  Just remember to take it slow and rest when you need to!  This is major surgery and your body needs time to heal!   Good luck!

I haven't yet been through the surgery, and I just want to thank you for posting about what you are going through, because it lets me know what to expect.  I hope that you heal quickly and start to feel better soon!

You are welcome.  I feel like even with all my research I still am not sure I was totally prepared for this. It has been one week today and I can't believe how different my life is.  Before I would have a breakfast sandwich, then go out to eat for lunch, come home and have two or three martinis while I made supper and after my DH would go to bed I would raid the cupboards.  I wasn't really hungry, how could I be? 

Now, I pretty much stay upstairs, at least until I can have some sort of soft protein or eat regualr foods (even if it is smaller quantitiy) the other night my DH was eating lasagna and I thought I was going to yell at him and rip the plate away and throw it out the window.  Why? I don't know, I am NOT hungry in the least but I also can't stand to not be able to have whatever I want when I want it. That's how I got this way to begin with. Always telling myself that I deserved it (but the sad part is that I was actually hurting myself).

I may not have been able to admit all of this a few weeks ago, funny how hindsight is so vivid.  Good luck with your journey. I hope you get there as soon as you are "ready."