FEELING LIKE A FAILER!!!

I went to my 3 year check up... and although I knew what the scale was going to say it made me fall to peices with my doctor. I can't believe that after everything I have done, and am still doing, I just can't seem to get the weight to stay off...

He calmed me down and gave me a tissue to wipe my eyes and then said "this is where we go from here" and this is what we should be doing... that he said WE was great...

So the plan is that i am going to have an upper GI done, and an endoscopy (something he said that he should have had done 3 years ago...humm..) and posibly a revision...*SIGH AND CRY*

I feel like i have failed, and its not my fault... I did eveything that i was supposed to, eating and exercising but this could be a chance to try again.... i am compleatly conflicted!!!

At least you go to your appointments and hold  yourself accountable.  Many people would just give up going to the Surgeon because they wouldn't want to face what they had to say. You can do it! You've come this far, don't give up now.

Sounds like you have a very supportive doc!  I agree.....don't give up!  You've worked hard!  Have everything checked out.  Don't hang your head!  Keep working with your doctor!  Things will work out in the end!
Ruth

yeah, he is a great doc. the only thing is that he doesn't DO the surgery anymore!! And Dr. Loggins does not do revisions so I have to go to portland... (really only 10 min further away) to a doc that I don't even KNOW or have a clue about... I can't even remember his name... but as my dad said (when i call him crying my eyes out)... i did fine with the gbs before so this should be easy, i know what to expect and all i can do is keep trying because the only time that i really can say that i failed is if i stop trying....


I still want to cry into a pillow!! (actually it made me want to go to the store and buy a box of cookies.... which i WEIRD because i don't eat sweets...)

Dr Cobean is the best!  Keep your chin up! 

I've read and re-read your post and I'm not understanding what the failure is.
As I see it you have not come to an end.  Instead you have come to the realization something needs to happen.  You need to find new motivation and support.  It sounds like you have support from your doctor and I know you have support here.  So let us help you with your self esteem and motivation.  Please contact me if you want to talk.

Sorry to ask a stupid question, but what kind of surgery did you have? Was it the bypass or the band? They are probably recommending that you go to MMC Bariatric or Casco Bay Surgery. That is where I had my band done and everyone there is very helpful, so if that is where they send you, you are in good hands.

I had a lapriscopic RNY done. I have read somewhere (going to do more searching) that there are more likely problems with lapriscopic vs open surgeries.... has anyone heard of that? I had some probelms at the very begining too...

I can't figure out the failure thing either.....hmmm......if you never lost another pound, you've already come a long way.

That being said, I can certainly understand wanting to lose more. I think you are very much a success, success isn't just getting to the goal- it's also how you go through the process, the changes you make and how you adapt and regroup to ensure long term success.

You've maintained over a 100 pound loss, with a bump in the road, for 3 years. There's no failure in that.
You are also logging your food and exercising. You're on the right track.

No one said that our tool was the magic answer to everything. But you're doing what you need to so that you can be successful.