Am I weird???

I want to start this post off by saying that I am TRULY grateful for my life!   My health is awesome, my weight loss is incredible, my family, my friends, my GOD!!!!  What would I do without all of these things!?!?!?  I am amazingly grateful and thankful for ALL that I have! 

With all of that said......I think I may have an issue!

Why couldn't Dr L fix my brain when he was in there fixing my stomach??  WHY??  Well, here goes......

The past 3-4 weeks, I have continued to lose slowly and, for that, I am thankful!  BUT, I have also been exercising daily!  I either walk (with weights to make it more difficult) or I go to the gym for at least 1.5 hours, or I ride my stationary bike and use the Bowflex or lift free weights with my arms.  WELL...this ALL should be good, right??  The more exercise the better??  It will help with the weight loss, right??

So......How come I almost feel "guilty" if I DON'T exercise?  I mean, truly!!!!!   My head tells me I NEED a day off as my legs are sore or my arms are sore, but the "fat" girl inside me tells me that IF I DON'T exercise, the weight will start creeping back up!!!!   WTH????  I KNOW it's not good to be doing as much as I am, probably, but why does my body or whatever, keep telling me I have to keep moving?    This also links into the daily weighing thing!!!!  I KNOW I CAN NOT be a slave to the scale!  I KNOW that there are daily fluctuations depending on food intake, sodium intake, protein intake, fluid intake, etc etc etc.  SO........my mind tells me "It's ok if I weigh a pound more today than I did yesterday!" but something else inside me wants me to lose that pound!  YIKES!  This is  tough!  I'm thinking I may need to speak to a counselor or something about all these thoughts at some point.  It's just amazing how the stomach got "fixed" but the brain almost seems like it doesn't want to accept that!

It's weird and just wanted to share!  Not sure if anyone else goes through times like this and if you did/do, any suggestions would be appreciated.  I guess I just wanted to share some more of the hills and valleys that this rollercoaster of a journey takes us on!

have a great Sunday everyone!  Thank you ALL for your support!!!!!!
Hugs,
Ruth

Ruth, I think you already know how I feel, I"ve kinda talked about it a few times.  This is one reason why I chose the band, and wanted to go slow.  I have seen some friends loose fast and their head just never caught up and they took it to the next level.  I do believe it is something you need to beware of and if that means counceling, so be it.  there is nothing wrong with exercising and being healthy, but you will come on sometimes and say you've been so terribly bad, and all you had for calories for the day was 700 cal. plus worked out for 2 hours.  THIS...Might be taking it a step too far.  I think you have done terrific and wish I had 1/2 the willpower you have, but, I think counseling is a wonderful idea.  It can't hurt.... I only wish you the best of  luck, and please don't take what i've said the wrong way.  Please be safe and healthy.  BODY AND MIND!!!  oh, and if anyone says I'm jealous, I am, you little **** you look great...... best of luck, Luv ya, and Hugs, Cheryl

Cheryl!  You are awesome!  I'd never take it the wrong way!  And, you're part of the reason I've been thinking about this so much!  I'm almost scaring myself! ha!  Then, DH, this morning says..."Can't you ever take a day off from exercise?"  I think that was the final straw! 

I'll get my head wrapped around this...with or without help (ie: counseling) but if I can't do this alone...I WILL get help! 

Thanks!!!!!

Ruth,

I hear you.....and I can't judge in your case whether it's bad or not, just talk about some of the things I'm dealing with now. It's funny I was talking to a friend yesterday about this - for me food was just one more substance in a line of addictive behavior - each step of the way I would transfer an addiction - from drugs to alcohol to cigarettes to food and yes to even diet pepsi....oh yeah shopping too. This is something I am on the watchout for as I go along - the emotional aspect of this process is hard and transfer addiction is common (I know a woman a work who has been through this married -and having casual sex at any opportunity) - exercise is known to be one of those transfer addictions. LOL....I can truly tell you that I haven't gotten to the point that exercise is an issue - although it does bother me if I go a day without my walk.....but I can see it happening. Do I think this is the case with you? I truly have no idea - I"m not a professional, I just thought I would put if out there for you.

What I do see is that you are going through some of the emotional upheaval that I went through this spring - and dang.....I don't like having to feel those emotions - I still have more to come. Do you ever feel like you are trying to suppress them? I know I do.

You might have "hit the nail on the head", as the saying goes.  Maybe this is my transfer addiction??  (I've never smoked, hardly ever drank, soda...eh...not a big deal!  Shopping...well, when I have money...that WOULD be my transfer addiction!  haha!)

It's amazing the emotions, the "craziness" that runs through my head sometimes trying to figure things out!  Maybe I should just stop figuring things out and just start "living"!!??!!

Thanks for the "food for thought!"
Hugs!
Ruth

Living is a good thing. Sometimes it hard to stop and "smell the roses", isn't it? You have done such an awesome job....you will get through this and be better for it, of that I'm sure!!!

No Ruth.... Your not weird!  It is natural that you found a new addiction... everyone is addicted to something... U've replaced your addiction to food to something that is healthy for you...  There is a lady named  Robin Rocket.... she helps with this sort of stuff...  Good Luck and keep us posted...  Much Love to you....

No Ruth you are not weird.  I just wish I could figure out how to manage my time to get to exercise more.  I need to find time to get to gym more.  If you are really struggling with this maybe you should go see a counselor before it gets too out of control for you.  You certainly do not want to hurt yourself.  Those mucles need a break sometime.

Thanks....all of you!  I'll figure it all out or I'll look for some help! 
I appreciate all of you SOOO much!
hugs!
Ruth