1 year check

I saw Dr. Loggins for my 1 year check yesterday, 2 weeks early.  He was very impressed by my weight loss, 114% of my excess weight = 159 pounds lost!!!  However, I'm too thin???  How does one wrap the brain around that one after being "too fat" forever.  All my bloodwork came back perfectly so I'm healthy.  The problem is I am beginning to get back to riding and the worry is that I won't be getting enough for my body to sustain on and it will eat away at my muscle rather than make it.  So, I have to have one of those mega protein shots EVERY day.  Corrine wants me to add 300 - 500 calories a day...something else that I just can't seem to grasp.  What if I gain too much?  I'm about 20 pounds below my ideal weight.  I knew I was too thin but I don't feel it.

Today I went to Kohls and bought a size 2...I can't even really understand it.  From a 26/28 to a size 2 in 2 years shy of 1 year!!!!  Oh my f***** word.  I'm so excited and happy but concerned and scared at the same time.   Please don't think I'm whining because I am not in the least bit...I'm so completely pleased.  My 2 week stay in the hospital, emergancy surgery and time in the ICU means nothing now!!

Thank you all for listening and your continued support!!  I'm looking forward to the next post-op meeting as I'm going to do what I can to get there!!!

Be careful Stephanie. I am certainly not any kind of expert, but if you have lost 114% of your excess weight and are 20 pounds below what you should be and your doc and nutritionist are worried, PAY ATTENTION. You may feel fine now and you may look fine too, but remember that we are not always the best judge of our body image and you certainly don't want to lose muscle mass. It is great that you are so healthy...please do whatever you have to do to stay that way. You will not gain too much if you follow what your doc says. I have to say, I would welcome this problem in my life. I just can't even imagine it!

I just want to say congradulations on your weight loss..you have done a great job..keep up the great work.. but be sure to listen to your doctor would hate for you to get sick.. I am really glad you feel great.

Steph,  Please do as they tell you.  Being underweight is just as bad as being overweight.  And just as sneaky in the damage it can do.  It is not something that happens overnight but over time.  You did not go through all this just to get unhealthy on the other side of the scale.  You have done a terrific job so far and I am sure you will continue to monitor your weight.  Just be safe. I can see how after years of conditioning it is hard to accept "too thin" but it is possible.

Thank you all!!  GNC is on my shopping list for today or tomorrow whenever I get to the grocery detail this weekend.  I found the Profect online but would like to try both that Corrine suggested.  I was able to add about 75 calories yesterday with walnuts and all bran crackers.  Corrine said it would take about a week to work up to the full calorie intake I need.   Thank you all for your support ~ I can't tell you enough how much it means to me to have you all.

Stephanie...Congrats on all your weight loss!  You look awesome!    I'd definitely listen to Corinne...wouldn't want to jeopardize your health this way!   Good luck with increasing cals!  It's just such an opposite mind-set from what we have been doing all our lives to try to lose weight!  Good luck!  honk

Stephaine, Congrats on the weight loss. It's very hard to put into words how it feels, but It does feel good to be small, and it is scarey at the same time and can become frustrating when you can't find clothes that fit because everything is to big, instead of being to small. And it feels like no one understands and thinks you're whinging, but you're not. You're just scared, frustrated and excited all that the same time. When I had my 1 yr check up I was told the same thing as you. To up my calories and to stop going to the gym (it was really hard to stop going) to help me maintain instead of losing more weight. I was really scared that I was going to get to small. From my 1 yr check up to my 18 month check up (in Feburary) I lost 4 more pounds. My nut. called that maintaining. I've wanted to start up excersing again but I'm scared to, affaid I won't be able to maintain. I'm still not eating like a small normal person yet, but I know I will someday and should enjoy my "honeymoon" period, but it is hard. It is hard to wrap your brain around being this small. I know it takes time for our brains to catch up to our bodies. And I know that I would look better if I gained some weight, but then again I think I would totally freak out if the scale started to go up. I know that sounds crazy. Being this small make you want to stay being this small. If that makes any sense. Stephaine you are not alone in your feelings, there are others out there that feel the same way you do. If you wanna talk, I'm here. My e-mail is      [email protected] ~dori~

Thank you so much Dori!!!  I've saved your email address and will definately be sending you a note. I am scared and frustrated!!  I was looking for a bathingsuit ~ private beach ~ and I can't find one that fits right because I'm TOO SMALL.  How crazy is that??? Again, thank you for your support, it's so nice to have friends who understand.