Disappointed but resigned

Well, I had some disappointing news today. Will probably VLOG about it later, but this is always my first stop. A while ago, someone here mentioned that Toder only does 1 or 2 Mainecare or Medicaire surgeries a month and so I thought I would email Lynn Bolduc and ask. I am a planner and I was "planning" that since my last appointment is at the end of March, I would likely meet with Toder a month or so later and would be able to have surgery soon after I graduate in June or at the latest July. Unfortunately that will not happen because I am temporally on Mainecare (full-time Student, Half-time pastor with no insurance and no income to buy any right now). Lynn said August at the earliest and maybe September, which I know in the scheme of things is not so terrible...I only began this journey on January 4th and many of you have waited much longer, but June or even July would have been such perfect timing for me. I am spending the summer writing my ordination paper and preparing for my ecclesiastical council (kind of like state boards for clergy) which will be in September. It would have been great to be well on my way when that happens instead of in the middle of it. . Lynn mentioned Huang, but I really want Toder's expertise so I must wait and be patient. But it is hard. I have been so enthusiastic about this and do not want to lose momentum. I am truly grateful to have MaineCare and grateful that Toder accepts it at all. Many don't. So I will count my blessings and walk with all of you as you go forward. But thanks for listening to me moan. It helps.

Terry, never think you are moaning.  YOu have been a great support to us all.  I feel that if you truly want to stay with Toder then it will be worth the wait and August or Sept isn't that far at all.  Think of it like you have to be on a 6 month supervised diet.  It must be very dissapointing, but it will still happen for you.  Keep the faith and don't you leave us, we need you here with us.  I actually was disapointed all day, cause I hadn't seen you post any messages.  also, keep up the good work, on your new eating habbits and you will soon see things happenning all on your own, then in August it will just take over.  Big Hugs,  Bless you, Cheryl

Terri,     I can understand how you feel, they are saying the same thing even for non Maine-care insurance...she is such an excellent surgeon that everyone wants her..In the end it will soooo be worth the wait!  I am a true believer that everything happens for a reason including timing...I will be here with ya waiting!  -Jen

Terri, I do know this is disappointing - I too had delays in seeing Toder, so i do understand. All I can say is she is definitely worth the wait - totally awesome. I'm not a religious person, but I do sometimes believe things happen for a reason even if it isn't apparent at this time.  The timing might not be as good for you, but you might be surprised just how it works out. This time inbetween sometimes will seem like it drags, but in the overall scheme of things it really goes too fast.  Candace

Terri-     I'm sorry to hear this. I actually was just in to see Toder today, she is such a fabulous woman. Keep your spirits up and do what needs to be done, they wont know for sure on a date until you get insurance approval anyway, things may work out.

Thanks for all your supporting words. I will be fine and actually, August wouldn't be the worst time in the world...September is another story but it will be what it will be. My experience is that everything always works out if you just do what you are supposed to do and keep moving forward. But then I am a glass half full kinda gal, not a glass half empty and that is a blessing! You are all quite wonderful and I thank you...

PS...my stride cycle just arrived but I have not opened the box yet. When I open the box I will have to do it and I am not sure I am ready. Hey...that could be my next YouTube Vlog! Ya...right! LOL

Can you cry on cue?  My doctor was going to give me a late August to early September date and I burst into tears.  I couldn't afford to miss weeks of work and I knew the surgeon had time in his schedule...it was the personal trainer that was overbooked. When I literally started sobbing on the phone they found the needed appointments and I was in surgery 12 days later. Also...August is a good surgery month, warm enough to recoperate on the porch, late enough to have had some outdoor activity time, early enough to be healed before the leaves need raked and the snow shoveled. Good luck!  We'll all be wishing you an early date!!! :) Sheli