Almost time and getting nervous

   I only have 2 more days till surgery and I'm getting so nervous. I keep thinking, what if I made a mistake? Is this what I really want? What's going to happen to my family if something happens to me during surgery? I know I really do want this but I keep second guessing  everything now.    As far as being physically ready, i'm all packed and have everything set for my daughter while i'm gone. My sister-in-law is the best, she's going to watch my 4 year old during the day while my husband works, and then work nights afterwards. I don't know what I would do without her. As far as home, I made dinners and froze them so they just need to take one out a night and heat it up. Left instructions for feeding the dogs and cat. It probably seems like my husband is a child but he gets going on something and forgets everything else. He's really great just not a homemaker.   I guess I've rambled enough. I hope these feelings are normal and not a sign that I shouldn't go through with it. Anyone else feel this way?   Cheryl

Cheryl,     I felt the same way when I was getting ready for surgery. I don't have a family like you but I do have a fiance and I am very close with my mom and sister. I was so afraid I wasn't going to come home and I had one or two nights of good crying and worrying. I can't say it ever completely went away, even going to the hospital I was just trying to not think about it because I knew if I did I wouldn't do it. I was also glad that the nurses weren't like are you sure you want to do this...because I have no idea what I would have said.     I only had my surgery about a month ago so I am still new to this but I think I can give advice on being nervous before surgery, so I will say what someone told me that made me feel better. You have done the research on this surgery and you know what to expect. Things have come so far since they first started doing this surgery in the U.S. and I am not sure what the mortality rate is at your hospital but at Eastern Maine it is something like 1 in 500...so that's like .2%, I'm sure that yours is pretty close if not the same as that. You know your surgeon and you picked them for a reason, you know that he/she (not sure if your surgeon is a man or woman) is qualified to do this surgery, is capable, and is good at what they do. You are doing this for yourself and you haven't come this far in the process to change your mind. My mom also pointed out to me that my surgeon, or in this case your surgeon, does not want anything bad to happen to you. It would be bad for them and their practice and so they are going to do everything in their power to make sure you come through this and are happy and healthy and losing weight when you wake up. It's not the happiest thing to think about but it's true, your surgeon is going to do everything possible to make sure the surgery goes right.     I don't know if that will help you or not, but it did me. I wish you the best of luck on your surgery and I will pray everything goes well for you, I'm sure it will. Soon you will be back on the boards and on the losing side!! Kristi

Hi Cheryl,     All those fears and feelings are perfectly normal.  I went through them too, twice!  LOL  I think anytime your about to face major surgery or a major life-change, we all question and analyze things to a frazzle.  In the end, we wake up to start a new chapter in life!        It sounds like you've got things well organized and are ready to go.  Good planning.  Your husband is lucky to have you.   My husband would have been tickled pink to find pre-frozen meals ready to eat!  LOL      I'll be praying for you Cheryl.  Things will be fine.  God is with you.   Blessings, Yvonne

Thanks for all the kind words, I know deep down this is what I want and I know that as soon as it's over (or maybe a couple of weeks after) I'll be glad I did. My Dr. does 2 surgeries every Monday and I was hoping I was the first because then I didn't have to wait around until noonish and I got the call today that I needed to be there at 5:45 am. So that's going to be good, I have to leave the house about 4:00 to get there but then everything will happen fast from there.   Tomorrow I start my liquid diet and Sunday is the bowel prep day, I'm not looking forward to that at all!! The others who had surgery by Dr. Loggins said if I can through that, then everything else is a breeze.   I'll let you know how things are going as soon as I can after surgery. Cheryl

Your concerns are all normal and we all go through it in one form or another.  Be thankful you are able to plan.........what would your family do if one of your health/weight related issues sent you quickly to a hospital, they will do fine.  You sound like a good wife and Mom to be thinking of their needs. Now sit back and take time for you. Concentrate on how in no time you will feel so much better, have more energy and see life in a new way.  I had surgery 2 months ago, down 42 lbs. and already see my life so improved.  I am off all my meds except for thyroid meds.  No more diabetes, high blood pressure, high cholesterol, and etc. slowing me down.  Don't look back, look ahead.................... you will have no regrets. Good Luck and let us know how you are doing.

I understand completely! I know I'll feel the same way when it's my turn. I know you have complete confidence in Dr. Loggins - just like I do! Just think, he's never had a death and he's sure not going to want you to be! That's why they were so picky with our pre-op testing, making sure everything was just right, and why we worked so hard with Corrine (our nutritionist) to be sure that we're ready to be succesful! You've EARNED this surgery and this life change, you're doing the right thing! And we're all proud of you!!!

Cheryl, Congratulations you are NORMAL We all had all those feelings and it will be OK. I am so glad that I did not give into my fears as it has changed my life. Let us know how you are doing and I will pray for you.

hi, Im also having surgery on monday in bangor. at 8:15 I have to be there at 6:15 so I know what your going through.. believe me I m going through the emotions to.. I was supposed to have it done on june 18th but 2 days before I fell and broke my arm and had to have surgery on that instead.. now my other surgery is monday and Im worried that Im going to do the wrong thing because I was warned with breaking my elbow.. I was in surgery for 7 hours and I have no health problems but Im just afraid that something is going to happen.. so lets just pray for each other and good luck

I'm the same way with omens, everything that happens I keep thinking is this for a reason? Like I started my peroid this morning!!! So now I have that to deal with right after surgery, I just figured I would let the nurses know when I get there.   I'm sure everything will come out great with both of us. Before we know it, it'll be in the past. I'm really excited about starting a whole new life though.  It's kinda like we're going on a vacation to somewhere new and exciting... And just think we can buy new outfits on the way!!!   That's going to be so cool to buy smaller clothes, drive a car without my belly rubbing on the steering wheel, not having my hips hurt from being squished into chairs with arms, and that's just the start of things i'm looking forward to. I just keep thinking about the good things and trying not to worry about Monday.    I'll keep you in my prayers, Cheryl