What do I do?

I'm starting to have a rough time, and need some shoulders......I'm about 10 weeks out, and had a relatively easy time with everything. I'm exercising regularly at the gym and have dropped 41 pounds so far. I just found out last week that my gall bladder needs to come out, so that is happening on 11/7. I'm ok with that, I am looking forward to not being sick so often. OK, my biggest concern is this...I"m starting to get the blahs, sort of fallen off the measuring wagon, and am starting to feel like I can't rely on my willpower any more. I'm missing the "crunch", which, for me, translates into snacking. It's not a matter of being hungry, it's the crunch feeling that I miss. I've done well, for the most part. Usually a carrot, or popcorn take care of things for me. I guess my big question for you all is...How come I don't feel any sensations any more? I don't feel hungry. I don't feel full. I've been eating at regular times, as opposed to when I feel hungry. This has made me think that my pouch isn't as small as it's supposed to be. I know how stupid that sounds, but it has crossed my mind. also, I'm getting more concerned about what people who eat with me are thinking when I fix a plate, or sit with them while eating. I wonder if they think that I'm eating too much. I know that you are all going to say that I shouldn't worry about other people, but we all know that we do that. lol I'm not eating wrong foods, but I worry that I can eat too much, especially when measuring isn't an option. I try to eyeball, but that's when the other people paranoia kicks in. UGH! I hope that someone can wade through this messed up post and try to make some sense out of what I'm trying to describe. Am I a mess?

Hi Jodi, I think you're quite normal. I had read somewhere that the nerves telling you you're hungry or full are healing or making new connections. I'm almost 4 months out and share alot of the concerns you have. I feel like I can eat way more than I'm supposed to and I'm in fear it will lead to my regaining in the long run. I had people at work watching every bite and asking like they were shocked "you can eat that"? it's amazing the stigma's that go along with wls, like I should only be eating gerber strained peas for the rest of my life. Those comments came as I was eating 1/2 cup of chili. As I said earlier I can tolerate pretty much everything but have not tried fried foods or sugar. I try to keep those crunchy salty yummies out of my house otherwise I would eat them. I regularly stock up on good choices so I won't stray, but sometimes I do. My loss has slowed some and I need to kick up the excercise, I'm starting to panic that the honeymoon phase is almost over. I think you're doing wonderful, and yes I'm going to tell you don't mind what other people say or think. You keep up the good work. Ann