I still can't believe it... no really... I can't believe that it is going to happen. I probably won't either until I wake up from surgery, LOL. Thank you all for your support. I would like to know where you ladies are at as far as your journey and did any of you get plastic surgery afterwards.. for example a tummy tuck and how do you feel now? Would you do it again?

my plan and my reality are vastly different...


normally:

commute: protein shake with click, designer whey coffee and milk
snack:  yogurt (light and fit 110 calorie by yoplait in yummy flavors)
lunch:   soup and salad is my favorite... i pick a bean soup or another high protein soup and half a sandwich (eat the fillings mostly) or a small salad with cheese and chicken.. I do put the yummy things on top and use dressing
snack:  fruit and nuts or a protein bar
dinner:   fish  and a veggie   (crab cakes and green beans were the last dinner)

yep you got it right

I am going to seem like a space alien to the rest of you but I don't think of the scale the same as many.

It shows my weight, yes. But at 3.5 years out I have embraced my new self. This is mostly because my old self does not exist anymore. I dealt with her and she is gone. This new me is all that is left.  Now don't get me wrong. NuMe has as many issues as old me. Different ones, but just as many.

And how this girl feels in her body can change from day to day. Like anyone else, I have days where I feel like a whale, days when I'm bloated, days when I feel good and confident.

I didn't lose nearly as much as everyone else, but seemed to have kept weight everywhere I originally wanted: boobs, butt, hips. I work out because I want to increase my muscle tone (and because it is damn fun).

I weigh once a week and the numbers fluctuate at various points of the month. I cut back when I feel the number is a bit high. Most of the time I make good choices.

So I think I've come to a good place. A bit closer to self acceptance. But I use the scale as a tool. It has no voice in my self-image.

Good morning!

I ask what's your meal plan for today because I need some ideas to get through this week. I was suppose to start the 5DPT (5day pouch test) but my son has been sick since Sunday. I haven't slept much and now my grand daughter is sick as well.  I figure next Monday will be safe to start and everyone should be back to normal. 

When I am stressed my body craves for carbs!  I need to focus on protein and low carbs. So, I figured if I get some ideas from you all maybe I will crave your idea and behave.  I know that sounds stupid but man oh man I need help today. 

I hope everyone has a great day.  I am hoping today is better for me.

~CIra