trying to be ok

For those of you who have been writing & calling since me loss I want to say Thank you so Much. I am horrible at keeping in touch and even worse when I am in crisis. I haven been smotherred by some old friends and they havnt let me have a second alone which is perfect for me. I can not believ how much work is involded with letting everyone know about Rays passing. I am currenlty trying to find a way to keep my house. Ive been on my own since I was 16 & refuse to go back. Sara is at her Dads for a while and being home alone is weird. I am so filled with guilt. The house talks to me. I have been on the couch &b corona has been my best friend. I see my suregon friay for my check up &b weigh in and I am sure it will be up. However on a good note today I got up at 6 am & walked 4 miles on the track & then had a protein shake so for the first time in weeks I did something good for me. Thats a start & since I am taking it one day at a time....its a great start. just wanted to make sure everyone knew I truly appreciate the thoughts Love Diana

Hey girl, I will be checking in with you ....don't wish to intrude...but I wanna hear for myself..... Trouble

I think of you often. I haven't called recently. I will be available for you anything after June 24 for anything you need! I have to go out of town from Sunday to Friday this week but after that I will certainly be here for you! love diane

Diana, I'm glad to hear you are being strong and hanging in there. Keep taking care of yourself, you will be fine. You are in my thoughts and look forward to giving you a big hug the next time I see you. Luv, Sue

Diana I am glad to hear you are being strong. Please hang in there it will all work out. Just like you said, take care of you, and your daughter. God bless, Patty Novik

Hey Master, It is nice to see an update from you. I've missed ya. I am pleased to hear that you are doing okay and I have no doubt that everything will work out for you. YOu are a wonderful woman with a kind heart - just keep your chin up girllee it is easier to see heaven that way! If you need ANYTHING call me I will be there for you, anytime day or night. Hugs, Patty

Diana hi, glad to hear from you and that you're starting to take care of yourself and doing a little better. Be strong and know our thoughts and prayers are with you. I've been thinking about you a lot lately. Take care of yourself and Sara and everything else will fall into place (like you said a day at a time). If you need anything just give a holler. Hugs and prayers, pat

Hi Diana - I've been thinking of you and Sara often. Remember when those days at a time become to much to bear...minute by minute works well also! I'm praying for you and Sara... Lord, hear the cries and frustrations of your servant Diana and her daughter Sara. Help her to feel the love and comfort that only you can provide from above. Help her to feel the strength that so many are praying she finds in this time of trial and devastation in her life. Help her to see, in the moments when tears cloud her eyes, that there are sooo many who care about her and her daughter. Help her to know peace that only you can shine on her life and recent situation. Help her to release all of her guilt to you, it's through your Son's death on the cross that we are forever redeemed in your loving eyes. Help her to remember her promise to take care of herself and help her make good on that promise, even if it's only for a minute everyday. When she needs help remind her that her friends are only a phone call or shout away. All of this I pray in your beloved son's name, Jesus. Amen. Call me if I can listen or be a shoulder to lean on. XOXOXO Jennifer