How's come..

Despite losing 128 lbs when I look at myself I feel fater than I did 128lbs ago.  I see this roll around my tummy and thing OMG where did this come from, and I look at my feet and think they look so fat, despite losing a shoe size....what's up with that???

Will we ever be satisfied with who we become?

i have a friend who has the same sort of thing. she was diagnosed with dismorphia. just know that you are not fatter than before, and that you are healthier. the only one who can answer if your satisfied is you. i also have lost 120+ pounds and have the tummy skin, but for me it sure beats where i was this time last year.

dont be down on yourself!

brian

i have the same problem. i am more self conscious now then 120 lbs ago. it sure is messed up LOL

I think that's it Nic you picked good words "more self conscious".  Don't get me wrong I feel really good about myself, but it seems I dwell on the belly roll now more than before.

Well, I am not as far along as you girls (and guy) but I have similar thoughts and feelings. Perhaps it is that we are more self AWARE now. I used to eat to forget and dress to be invisible and even at times, behave as if I didn't count. That's very sad to say, but at times it was true. Now, I still have issues with self esteem but I feel as I am more aware of my body and other people are too! I look in the mirror more. I analyze what I wear more. Before it was "well Im going to look like crap in everything, and nothing hides 165lbs of extra weight, so what do I look the least onjectionable in?" But NOW, I nit pick on specific parts of my body because some parts are actually acceptable! lol It's a bad habit and I cant answer your question very well. We need to love ourselves though and treat ourselves like we would treat each other...because I think you are beautiful and a wonderful inspiration to me! You always have been since day one on here...I wish you could see yourself as I see you. But then, Im guilty of the same stuff.

I hear ya...

Hey Tink,  I've only lost 80 lbs so far and have 85 to go, Whew!  I feel awesome about myself until I get a glimpse of myself in a mirror or picture.  I get lots of compliments from people who know me about how great I look, but I'm so disappointed about what I look like.  (I carry most of my weight in the middle- and I don't mean the boobs area) >>Sigh!<<.  

I don't know if this counts as the same thing experience you're having since you're far ahead of me in this thing.  I still have significantly more to lose.  Just wanted you to know that you're not the only head job around.  

One of the psych counselors from St. Agnes is starting bariatric group sessions in Columbia MD next month for $40/session.  You may want to look into it.  I'm considering it.

Stay encouraged and keep pressing forward.

Thanks Laura, I think you did a lot better summing it up than I did.  You certainly put in words what I never would of been able to about how we felt before losing weight.  I love the part of dressing to be invisible, oh how true that is.

This whole thing is a head game, and some days are good and some days are not.  I'm just in a NOT phase right now.  leave me in clothes and I'm happy and love the way I look.  Take me out of them and I don't like myself at all!!  Gotta work on that.

Cheers to you both good luck in continuing your journey you are doing fantastic.