Thanks to all of you...

Just wanted to say thanks to all of you for your thoughts, prayers and support. This past month has been heartbreaking for me and my family. I am so glad I had a chance to have 30 more days with my Mom. As she was laying in the hospital unable to communicate I still knew the last time I saw her that she knew I was there. I was so happy that I made arrangements for her 2 best friends of over 50 years to see her. I am glad they did not wait to go. I felt she knew they were there as well.

I got the call that she had passed about 1:00 am Monday. I was very sad but at the same time I knew that Mom was ready to leave and she was off to be in a better place. I told her the last time I saw her that it was OK to go and that she did not have to deal with the pain and suffering anymore. I am so happy that she is now at peace and I know that the Lord held the gates open for her. I am sure he was waiting for her arrival and that she got her beautiful wings right away.

I went to ac puncture yesterday and i have been asking for my Mom to send me a sign that she is OK. I have been waiting and yesterday I got the sign and I want to share it with you all. My acupuncturist and I had talked about and hour. I then got on the table she inserted the needles and put on soft peaceful music. I asked her to close the blinds so I could try to have some peace. She walked out of the room and all of a sudden I heard a cracking sound from the window. It scared me as I thought someone had thrown a rock or something worse. I turned and looked and to my shock the crystal bird that Jan had on a perch had fallen along with a crystal star that had been hanging on a suction cup. At that moment tears streamed down my face as I knew there was the sign I had been hoping for.My Mom was there with me. My Mom knew that I loved birds and stars. Jan came back in and she saw what happened and she had chills. I am so glad that my prayer was answered. My Mom is safe and in peace.

I would like to thank all of you as I felt that someone was always thinking positive thoughts and sending prayers our way. Special thanks to my friend Leslie aka Charliegirlten. You have been my rock and have stood by me and helped me with all the stress and pain that I have been dealing with. I love you so much for that and want you to know that I would be here for you no matter what. I loved the arrangement and the beautiful card. I can never repay you for your time and love but you can bet that I will never forget who my true friends are.

Today I will be going to ID my Mom and make final arrangements. I pray that I can be strong and hold it together. I have been grieving for my Mom for so long and I think this has helped me.

Sorry to be so long but I wanted to share this with my OH friends.

                                                                            Love,

                                                                               Julie

Julie, I cannot begin to imagine the feelings you are going through. Please let us know if there is anything we can do to help.

Julie,

there is nothing I can say or do that will make this pain better now.

Later on you will find your place and your peace.

go with your grief as long as you need to.


best wishes and love to you

Oh Julie, Honey, I am So Sorry about your Mom!  I've been so involved in my own crap, I didn't realize.  I've said a prayer for your mom, you and your family and will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.  I've been there and know that there's not much anyone can do except be there for you.  The biggest thing I found so bad in the immediate weeks after is that as people quickly get back to their lives, loves and laughing....you feel disconnected from them and wonder, "don't they realize/remember that my Mom just passed?"  It is normal to feel that way.  Just reach out to those who know and love you.  Sometimes you need to talk, but sometimes you don't want to...you just want a hug, or sometimes just to see acknowledgement in someone's eyes of your pain.  Here is a quote that I keep close at hand and helped me so very much when I lost my mom:

          What we have once enjoyed and deeply loved we can never lose,
       for all that we love deeply becomes a part of us.

Your Mom and memories will always be with you.

Please let me know if you want to talk.

Hugs,

Terri

Yes, Julie, your mom was there with you, as she will be always, especially whenever you need her!  My mom died in 1980, and the stories of her closeness have kept me going, through the years.  Please remember, I'm here for you, if there's ANYTHING I can do, please let me know!

Ginger

Julie,

Yes your Mother will always be near watching over you.  My heart goes out to you. I know the pain that you are feeling right now.  I just want to share a song that my mother loved since she first heard it. 
Your Mom is now rejoicing in the same place with my Mom.

http://www.andiesisle.com/icanonlyimagine.html

I totally agree with what Terri wrote to you.

Lots of prayers & hugs coming your way.

Cira

Julie,

You know I am thinking about you and if you need anything let me know.

Lois  ((HUGS))

Ditto Julie! xoxo

I know words are just words at a time like this... The best words I have ever used during the rough times are the serenity prayer...

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I and the wisdom to know the difference...  I used this over and over in my mind during a funeral once - it was the only thing keeping me in my seat and not to lose it...  It has brought me through some of the worst times of my life...  Between my own prayer chant and others prayers I have come through it all...  and know you will as well.

I wish only the best for your family and hope you can all celebrate her life as you go through the arrangements.  She would want for you all to be happy and remember her with peace.