My One Year Surgiversary.... I can't believe it!!!!!!!!
One year ago today I had RNY Gastric Bypass surgery. I can't even begin to explain how I felt in the days leading up to my surgery and the first month after having my surgery. I was scared, excited, scared, terrified, afraid, scared, sad, nervous, disappointed, hopeless, and hopeful...oh and scared. These words just can't express it.
I made the decision for obvious reasons. I was tired of living my life the way I was. I was tired of feeling like I was "less" of a person because I was obese. I was tired of hating myself. I was tired of trying so hard to be perfect and over compensating for the fact that I was fat so people would like me. I was OVER being depressed and being unhealthy. I was tired of not truly living. I wanted a future. I wanted to be healthy. I wanted to have a family. I wanted to be a good wife to my husband. I wanted to LIVE.
The night before my surgery my husband and I went out to dinner (my doctor did not require a pre-op diet other than no food after midnight and don't eat the world on the days leading up). I was trying to focus on protein because my blood sugar was very high and wouldn't come down with my meds. I ordered an American cheese omelet which came with potatoes. I asked the waitress to take my plate so I wouldn't eat everything and she said, "oh honey, I totally understand" as she took my plate. I thought to myself, yeah right, you skinny b---h." Then she came back to me and began to tell me how she had gastric bypass surgery and I about fell out of the booth. I had been praying for a sign that everything was going to be OK and this MUST have been it.... I really needed that. So on January 13, 2009, I hugged my mom, I hugged my step-dad, and I hugged my Alberta... thinking it could possibly be the last time I saw them. I walked my 320 pound ass into the operating room and climbed up on the operating table all by myself. I let them strap my arms down and I let them administer sweet, sweet anesthesia. When I woke up I felt like I had been hit by a truck and I was so thankful that the "easy" part was over and for my magical pain button. I spent 2 nights in the hospital and my WONDERFUL husband stayed with me the whole time. My mom and step-father visited, my in-laws visited and my father visited. When I came home, there were all kinds of flowers from family and friends and I basically lived in our basement for a week or so (which smelled like a funeral home...lol.)
I had to RE-learn how to eat, I had to sip 2oz. of water every 15 minutes or so. I had sugar free popsicles, chicken broth and sugar free jello for a week-- it was ALL I could stomach (imagine that). I watched the food network like a dummy and went through this "WTF did I do?" stage. A week after my surgery I had my first follow up visit with Dr. Roe and I freakin' lost 18 pounds! It was then that I realized I had done the right thing for me.
I took 9 weeks off of work to recover from my "open RNY." Each week I graduated to new diets and I took every day as it came. I developed new habits and really took the time to figure out how I would work these new habits into my "regular-back-to-wor
Now I am celebrating my 1 year "surgiversary." I have learned and am still learning who I am. I have learned who my best and truest friends are. I have made new friends. I've fallen more in love with my husband. I am not afraid to live.... I AM LIVING. I am no longer diabetic, my cholesterol levels are normal, all my blood work is great and I have lost 142 pounds. I am looking forward to a long and healthy life and I am so thankful for the "second chance" I have been given. I have been truly blessed with a "complication free" RNY. Now it's all about maintenance and getting rid of those last 20 pounds. There have been so many "wow" moments over the last year and once again, words just cannot express the joy that I feel.
Here's to a long and healthy life...GO ME!
I made the decision for obvious reasons. I was tired of living my life the way I was. I was tired of feeling like I was "less" of a person because I was obese. I was tired of hating myself. I was tired of trying so hard to be perfect and over compensating for the fact that I was fat so people would like me. I was OVER being depressed and being unhealthy. I was tired of not truly living. I wanted a future. I wanted to be healthy. I wanted to have a family. I wanted to be a good wife to my husband. I wanted to LIVE.
The night before my surgery my husband and I went out to dinner (my doctor did not require a pre-op diet other than no food after midnight and don't eat the world on the days leading up). I was trying to focus on protein because my blood sugar was very high and wouldn't come down with my meds. I ordered an American cheese omelet which came with potatoes. I asked the waitress to take my plate so I wouldn't eat everything and she said, "oh honey, I totally understand" as she took my plate. I thought to myself, yeah right, you skinny b---h." Then she came back to me and began to tell me how she had gastric bypass surgery and I about fell out of the booth. I had been praying for a sign that everything was going to be OK and this MUST have been it.... I really needed that. So on January 13, 2009, I hugged my mom, I hugged my step-dad, and I hugged my Alberta... thinking it could possibly be the last time I saw them. I walked my 320 pound ass into the operating room and climbed up on the operating table all by myself. I let them strap my arms down and I let them administer sweet, sweet anesthesia. When I woke up I felt like I had been hit by a truck and I was so thankful that the "easy" part was over and for my magical pain button. I spent 2 nights in the hospital and my WONDERFUL husband stayed with me the whole time. My mom and step-father visited, my in-laws visited and my father visited. When I came home, there were all kinds of flowers from family and friends and I basically lived in our basement for a week or so (which smelled like a funeral home...lol.)
I had to RE-learn how to eat, I had to sip 2oz. of water every 15 minutes or so. I had sugar free popsicles, chicken broth and sugar free jello for a week-- it was ALL I could stomach (imagine that). I watched the food network like a dummy and went through this "WTF did I do?" stage. A week after my surgery I had my first follow up visit with Dr. Roe and I freakin' lost 18 pounds! It was then that I realized I had done the right thing for me.
I took 9 weeks off of work to recover from my "open RNY." Each week I graduated to new diets and I took every day as it came. I developed new habits and really took the time to figure out how I would work these new habits into my "regular-back-to-wor
Now I am celebrating my 1 year "surgiversary." I have learned and am still learning who I am. I have learned who my best and truest friends are. I have made new friends. I've fallen more in love with my husband. I am not afraid to live.... I AM LIVING. I am no longer diabetic, my cholesterol levels are normal, all my blood work is great and I have lost 142 pounds. I am looking forward to a long and healthy life and I am so thankful for the "second chance" I have been given. I have been truly blessed with a "complication free" RNY. Now it's all about maintenance and getting rid of those last 20 pounds. There have been so many "wow" moments over the last year and once again, words just cannot express the joy that I feel.
Here's to a long and healthy life...GO ME!
Maureen C. 
MOEMOE!!! Give a girl a chance!!! LOL!!! I had this on my calendar and intended to give you your own post - I'm sorry you had to do it yourself, but yes, GO YOU!!!
You've done an amazing job!!! It's always a joy to read when someone uses wls not only to become healthier, but to actually experience and enjoy life - just as you've described!!!
I wish you much success on the rest of your journey - you deserve it!!!
Hugs,
Tia
You've done an amazing job!!! It's always a joy to read when someone uses wls not only to become healthier, but to actually experience and enjoy life - just as you've described!!!
I wish you much success on the rest of your journey - you deserve it!!!
Hugs,
Tia
Maureen....
Thank you for sharing your story with us! I am so happy that you are doing soooo great! A year out & only 20 pounds from goal????? AMAZING! Congrats & may you have continued success!
Thank you for sharing your story with us! I am so happy that you are doing soooo great! A year out & only 20 pounds from goal????? AMAZING! Congrats & may you have continued success!
Starting weight 301 Current weight 127
No Matter How I May Change, I Will Still Be ME!!!!
That was a GREAT READ!!! I cant even imagine you at 320 pounds girl. When I see you and how small your little wrist are and your legs and your kicking those HOT boots up some TINY JEANS I think GOD I WOULD NEVER HAVE KNOWN SHE BATTLED WITH HER WEIGHT!! You my dear should be IMMENSLEY PROUD OF YOURSELF!!! You have ROCKED THAT TOOL this year and I know your 100 times healthier. You already know I am in awe of you and how far you have come. I agree with you though this is a SECOND CHANCE at life and we should all take that very serious...God knows I do............... I hope this year is just as good for you as this past year of your journey. All my love to ya sweetie (((Hugs)))
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