Not Only Did I FALL off the Wagon...IT RAN ME OVER! Geesh!

Well I knew it was coming.  For me discipline only lasts so long.  I've always known I would not be able to eat like before, BUT, always hoped I could enjoy the same foods.  The more I experiment, the more I find I absolutely cannot eat like before, including the foods and the actual behavior.  While I was well aware of behavior modifications going into surgery, I still never acclaimed to decide on what foods I would NEVER eat again.  NEVER have again is what got me in trouble on yo-yo diets.  I'd go 6 months without something and then I'd eat it everyday for two weeks.

Well last night was my first real social event since surgery.  It started out ok but progressively got worse! I had a few bites of the appetizers that were going around.  I love me some chicken wings but they really didn't love me.  Boo hoo #1 for the night.  #2.  While I went to the dinner thinking I'd play safe and get chicken, I decided last minute to attempt the steak and just get it medium...if it was tender I could at least get a taste right? WRONG. 

So meanwhile I had some appetizers and probably could have and should have been done there, I continued to my meal with the intentions of having a few bites and taking it home.  I had a few bites alright but it didn't hit me that I overdid UNTIL the pain came on.  Sitting there so stuck after I took my 3rd smallest bite ever of this steak and looking at my entire plate FULL while most of my table tore through theirs. Well I immediately knew steak was off my list and I told my coworker she could take him home for her BF.

So dessert came and I was in not one more bite mode so I took it home..wish I didn't now.  About two hours later when I got home I was insistent upon having a few bites of this freaking cheesecake after I watched everyone lick their dessert plates dry.  Well very bad move on my behalf. I started sliming big time and after about a minute or two of sliming, I hurled it up it! GROSS!

My immediate reaction was OH NO that was an actual episode of vomitting...NO NO in bandster world!  I just went to bed after that and tried to forget it.

However, this am my chest was a bit sore.  I have had hardly any appetite all day and considered doing liquids from the get-go today.  I did decide to call the Dr. and told them what had happened.

The AFTERMATH! 
2 days liquids
2 days pureed
to help me get over my episode and let things settle.  Every vomiting episode causing swelling due to the great stomach pressing up on the band and then things getting irritated and sore.

Somedays I really honestly think it would be easier to live on liquids and mushies to avoid this sort of thing. I have this awful uncomfortable feeling in my chest today because of my attempts to be what I used to think was normal with food - meaning that I can eat what I want just not tons and tons of it.  I'm slowly learning with mistakes that I CANNOT eat everything - some foods just do not and will not work with the band.  I wish I could say incidents like this will make me think twice about trying something and today I say it will but really what will next time bring.

I do know that I will not be eating NY Strip steak again and chicken wings, well not unless they are cooked for 10 hours and falling off the bone in a crockpot (sigh).

Tomorrow is a new day....

Sorry to hear about that Nikki  :/

I don't have problems with wings and steaks, although I did feel like I did,  right after an adjustment.  I think you just got your fill last week. 

My steak is cut into pencil eraser size pieces, and I chew forever when I eat wings without cutting away the meat of the wings. 

To sum it up, give it a try again in a couple weeks.  I have yet to find an intolerance for food other than biscuits.  Those biscuits, I know I definitely cannot handle,  period.  Other than that, I'm enjoying food - just in small portions.

We are all different, but I thought I'd give you a glimmer of hope that all is not lost. 

so sorry sweetie. glad you came out alive!

I'm so sorry to hear about your pain.  I hope it all subsides soon!

Hey girl....Sorry to hear that you have been having a rough week.  Like I keep telling myself...no one said this surgery was going to be easy...We will never know how our body will react to a food until we actually try it out...its like playing russian rulette..sometimes you win...sometimes you lose...Its hard trying to resist from enjoying the foods we once could enjoy...but I think when things like this happens it kinda put things back in perspective that its a lifestyle change and that its harder to break our eating habbits that we have had for so long....

I will check on you later this week....

Nikki I am sorry to hear about the bad night...  I wish I had some words of wisdom to tell you but I wanted you to know I hear what you are saying and can't help but think that later on down the road all these things will be fine..... you are still newly out... give it time.

and don't be so hard on yourself... things happen.

Thanks everyone.  It won't be my first and won't be my last I am sure and hopefully it will get easier with time. 

I am for sure so darn sick of liquids though but I am going to play by the rules.  I have to remind myself that this is not easy and 99.9% of my food issue are still with me and that will not change right away and matter of fact I don't think they will ever go away entirely. 

Managing things is another story and well sometimes I can and sometimes I just don't...

So what soup should I have for dinner

What soup did you choose for dinner?  Hang in there ...

cream of crab...but it wasnt that good :(  but i got some protein in and i feel satisfied.  I feel like the pain is subsiding some.

For tomorrow i picked up the NAKED brand protein drink. It has a little more natural sugars than i normally would have in protein supplements but I still gaga on the other ones so we'll if this one treats me well.

I also picked up some frozed fruit per my dr advice toTRY and ad to my shake powders and blend with ice.

Early to bed for me tonight to rest this all off and get back on track!

Never heard of Naked brand before.  Where can you find it and is it any good?  Have you tried the Muscle Milk Light?  I can tolerate that one and the Nestle Carnation Instant SF isn't too bad either.  I haven't tried many of the protein drinks only because I can't afford it!  I paid $35 for a tub of Synthesix protein powder, and I hate it.  It will rot in my pantry before I drink that stuff again.  

When you are feeling better, I made a sausage and peppers dish the other day that was really good.  It was almost like the real thing!  I used italian turkey sausage, sauteed in olive oil with peppers, onions, mushrooms and added a can of tomatoes with some garlic.  It was really good!  Good protein from the turkey sausage and lots of flavor with the peppers, onions & mushrooms.

You are too funny with your "gaga"!  I haven't heard that term in a long time!  LOL.