I think I just had an oops or uh oh momemt!

Ok so we just had lunch catered.  I was going to give it a whirl.

I had a chicken salad sandwich..picked out the chicken pieces and didn't eat the celery or peppers that were pretty hard. I wanted to try to eat bread.  I know I know I used to live off bread...but it was whole grain white and wet from the chicken salad...I ate 1 piece threw the other half away. It went down easy...

I had 5 fresh strawberries and THEN...........there was dessert so I desperately wanted to try..it was dessert bars with oreos ..my weakness. I ate 2 small squares they were like maybe a little over and inch by an inch...and then a tiny lemon one too.  SIGH.  I am not sure how I feel...everything went down easy.  I think I am full but still think I could eat more (mental hunger I know).  I know what I would have eaten before and that would have been 1.5 sandwiches and all the bread....maybe some salad, about 2 spoonfulls of fruit AND probably 2 cookies, 2 brownies and 2 lemon things just at lunch...I would have had just a dessert plate. And then probably would have had more while I was cleaning it up!  I'm trying not to feel bad or guilty about it.  WTF I am suppose to still be on purees. They say in the BAND forum that junk food and sweets slide right through...dunno why but they do...many RNYers dump and BANDsters battle because they CAN eat sweets/fat  with no effect....not even get full from them.  A local lady I chatted with had issues with eating healthy food and lived off of ho ho's and ding dongs.

I dont want to count it as set back just that I ate a normal lunch with a little dessert. I think I am full now but definitely don't want to go back to see what's left. I hope that the whole tray is gone by this afternoon! 

Suggestion for moments/choices like this.  This is not something I will go buy in the store or even make at home, but when the option is presented to me like today, I will most likely have at least taste....

In my personal opinion, I don't think it's a setback. 

What would be a setback is if you felt ill afterwards.  I'd just as soon be "full" than only eat a little and then feel hungry an hour later - and you'll notice the changes as you get your band filled. 

We are to eat normal -and yeah, you might have jumped into solids too soon, but chicken salad?  That counts, in my mind, as being pureed!  SMILES.

Okay, so pick yourself up and get back on the no carb horse.

Carbs/sweets remain my biggest weakness.  However, I take heart in the fact that I don't eat them like I did pre-op.

It's a learning process Nikki, and it's hard to get our minds to cooperate with our brains sometimes.

Just hang in there. 

Hugs,
Tia

Tia and Candy thanks for chiming in on this one.  I am feeling a little awkward about the fact that I ate that, but I promised myself after surgery I wouldn't keep beating myself up over food. I have to remind myself that surgery is a tool and that it was never the intention of being on a forever-diet.

I should really be focusing on the fact, like you said Tia, that I didn't eat anything close to pre-surgery amounts. probably 1/4.  So that's a start.

The mental battle with food is so persistent. I want so much to be able to learn to live with it normally - making healthy choices most of the time and enjoying food for what it is other times. My biggest hurdle is going to be going out to it or to a party and it's something I am far from ready to do!  I've had this battle since I was a little child so I don't know what it's like in my mind to be different.

It certainly for me will be a learning process that I'll have to be studying 24/7.  At least in the beginning....

I found the best way to deal with party food is to contribute something that YOU can eat.  Odds are, people won't know (or care) that it's wls friendly, they'll just like it because it tastes good!

Tia

Hi Nikki - Don't beat yourself up over this.  Consider what you use to eat and look at it as a hurdle.  There will be other work events or social events that you will have to face and it will never be easy because let's face it... we like food!

Now, I can't say anything about the 'still being on purees' because I followed my doctor's post op instruction to the T.  If he would have told me to eat pickled pigs feet as my post op diet I would have choked them down - lol.  Get back on the pureed bandwagon ASAP.

Yes, with the band we can eat all the sugar in the world and not dump or get sick.  The band gives us the tool to cut back on portions.  Those portions being solid protien, veggies and fruit. 

It is a stuggle everyday but I promise the more you put into it the more you get out of it!

(((hugs)))

Beth

hey sweety, I barely did the liquid for a week and then uree for maybe 4 days and then went to semi solid foods because I could not take blenderizing anything anymore.

And trust me, if today you ate all that and felt just full, tomorrow you might try it again and feel sick. wonders of this surgery, nothing reacts the same and no two people have the same reaction. I can eat a piece of chocolate and be fine one day and be sicker than the dog the next day.

don't beat yourself up unless you find yourself starting to reach for the dessert before that protein :-)

Thanks Sylvie! I know what you mean about being sick of blending stuff.  Actually in my notes it does say if you can eat it with out teeth you can have it HAHAHA! So many of the foods that I have not pureed have been super soft and able to be pureed in my mouth just as well. 

Back on track today.  No tempting dessert in the office and really not having much a sweet tooth today.  Very little sugar and carbs today!