Five and a half years .....
I often don't even remember to post for my own annual anniversary, but it caught me this morning that today is 5 1/2 years exactly (from March 22, 2004) that I had my RNY. At this very time 5 1/2 years ago, I was waiting to be taken away to surgery. Mr Mo and I had talked to Dr Sofronski, talked to the anethesiologist, and were just chilling watching TV in pre-op. The next thing I knew after they took me away I was screaming at anyone who was within earshot .. that I HURT and why did Mr Mo let me do this ????? Let me tell you, he was pretty freaked out about it hearing me screaming. I was running a fever that broke over night and by the time he got to my room on Tuesday a.m., I was out of bed and had washed my face, brused my teeth and was feeling ALMOST human, though I still wondered WHY I had done this. The good news is, by the time I got home on Thursday night, I had stopped wondering WHY .. and was ok with the whole thing. It took me a while before I was GLAD I had done it, and even longer until I could honestly say I would do it again in a heartbeat.
Now, fast forward 5 1/2 years ... my quality of life has changed dramatically in the last 5 1/2 years. I do things that I could never have imagined I would ever do again. We just got back from 5 days in Gettsyburg and spent parts of Friday and Saturday exploring the battlefield. At one point I was climbing on rocks and getting into places that would have freaked me out assuming that I would have even attempted them 6 years ago. I asked Mr Mo if he could have seen me doing those things 6 years ago, and his response was .. I'm not sure I believe I saw you do them today !!!
Have I lost all my weight .. NO
Have I regained some .. YES
Have I given up ... ABSOLUTELY NOT
My lowest post op weight was 125 to 130 pounds less than my highest ever recorded weight (though not my immediate pre-surgery weight). The weight I gained back took me to within 100 pounds of the highest (do the math .. I gained back 25 to 30 pounds .. ) I've been working hard to lose the regained weight .. it's not easy but it can be done. I know the regain was lazy eating habits and I am trying to conquer them and put protein first. I don't beat myself up .. I just take every day as it comes.
My goal for today is to go back in 6 months for my 6 year check up and be where I was for my 1 year check up!!! (Truth be told .. I would truly love to be 25 pounds less than that, but if it is it is ..if not . it's not .. .. I have to be realistic .. )
When I started my WLS journey, I had dreams of being a 'star' and being the BEST at it .. well .. that didn't happen and in the process, I had some disappointment, BUT .. the good news is .. I am happy in my skin ... I feel healthy .. I love my life and as I have said many many times before, I honestly can't say that WLS will make me live longer ... but it sure has given me back a life to live.
For everyone who is on this journey or thinking of taking it .. may you find your peace and enjoy the ride ..
Hugs, Mo
Comparison is the thief of joy!
If we spend our time comparing our life/weight loss/body to others, we totally miss what WE have accomplished. Keep in mind how far you have come and what you can do now that you couldn't do weeks/months/years ago. I hate the expression " It's all good", but in this case it fits! Wherever you are in your journey ... It's ALL good!!!
Hugs, Mo
Comparison is the thief of joy!
If we spend our time comparing our life/weight loss/body to others, we totally miss what WE have accomplished. Keep in mind how far you have come and what you can do now that you couldn't do weeks/months/years ago. I hate the expression " It's all good", but in this case it fits! Wherever you are in your journey ... It's ALL good!!!
Absolutely lifelong!!!
Hugs, Mo
Comparison is the thief of joy!
If we spend our time comparing our life/weight loss/body to others, we totally miss what WE have accomplished. Keep in mind how far you have come and what you can do now that you couldn't do weeks/months/years ago. I hate the expression " It's all good", but in this case it fits! Wherever you are in your journey ... It's ALL good!!!
Hugs, Mo
Comparison is the thief of joy!
If we spend our time comparing our life/weight loss/body to others, we totally miss what WE have accomplished. Keep in mind how far you have come and what you can do now that you couldn't do weeks/months/years ago. I hate the expression " It's all good", but in this case it fits! Wherever you are in your journey ... It's ALL good!!!
Hugs, Mo
Comparison is the thief of joy!
If we spend our time comparing our life/weight loss/body to others, we totally miss what WE have accomplished. Keep in mind how far you have come and what you can do now that you couldn't do weeks/months/years ago. I hate the expression " It's all good", but in this case it fits! Wherever you are in your journey ... It's ALL good!!!
