Grocery Shopping Blues
So yesterday I managed to get out of the house in attempt to buy some things to start getting back to shakes. All in all for everything I needed I ended up going to 3 stores. The Asian Grocer for produce because it's cheaper, then Trader Joes for Greek Yogurt and soup and the of course ended at Giant for a few other things that were nowhere to be found at the other stores.
Well by the time I got to Giant I was so food stressed and frustrated. I seriously felt myself tearing up pushing my cart. I was very depressed about food - the lack there of and not at all happy about one thing I purchased in attempt to experiment with shakes.
Food demons are everywhere. The TV is a huge culprit but I can always flick off that channel. I can't avoid the grocery store. I'm dreading Halloween and all the candy (a weakness of mine). It was nothing for me to be able to eat 10-15 of those little size candy bars. I'd eat one and couldn't stop until they were all. I made a huge mistake of buy my dog these cookies that look and smell just like people cookies. Sweets have always been a downfall. I'd rather have cake or oreos and milk for dinner than food.
I know surgery doesn't cure food issues - especially the Lap Band because we don't really ever get sick from food like RNYers have experienced. But I do know I need to do something about my obsessive thoughts about food. Yesterday watching football all I wanted was some wings, pizza and some chips and dip. GOOD LORD! Hate to admit but healthy food isnt feel good food. I hope I am so not doomed from the start here!
How does everyone else deal with their food issues, addictions, cravings, obessession whatever we have that got us o the point of surgery! I know I am going to need extra help dealing but that extra help cost money in therapy that I do not have :(
I hope once I can eat I am satisfied with good choices and with my fills I can avoid certain temptations. I did have surgery however to eat normal and never having my oreos again doesnt seem normal. Maybe if I could have just 3 instead of a whole row or half the pack!
Just quite stressed that I have no life without food as that pretty much revolves around everyone I know - friends and family both. I do feel quite alone especially in the past week where no one has come to visit me or better yet even took the time to call. It's as if know my lifestyle MUST be different, my past and those in it do not exist. So much for people who say they care about you!
It really sucks having hardly any friends especially at a time like this that want to up and disappear.
Kinda sad
Nikki
Well by the time I got to Giant I was so food stressed and frustrated. I seriously felt myself tearing up pushing my cart. I was very depressed about food - the lack there of and not at all happy about one thing I purchased in attempt to experiment with shakes.
Food demons are everywhere. The TV is a huge culprit but I can always flick off that channel. I can't avoid the grocery store. I'm dreading Halloween and all the candy (a weakness of mine). It was nothing for me to be able to eat 10-15 of those little size candy bars. I'd eat one and couldn't stop until they were all. I made a huge mistake of buy my dog these cookies that look and smell just like people cookies. Sweets have always been a downfall. I'd rather have cake or oreos and milk for dinner than food.
I know surgery doesn't cure food issues - especially the Lap Band because we don't really ever get sick from food like RNYers have experienced. But I do know I need to do something about my obsessive thoughts about food. Yesterday watching football all I wanted was some wings, pizza and some chips and dip. GOOD LORD! Hate to admit but healthy food isnt feel good food. I hope I am so not doomed from the start here!
How does everyone else deal with their food issues, addictions, cravings, obessession whatever we have that got us o the point of surgery! I know I am going to need extra help dealing but that extra help cost money in therapy that I do not have :(
I hope once I can eat I am satisfied with good choices and with my fills I can avoid certain temptations. I did have surgery however to eat normal and never having my oreos again doesnt seem normal. Maybe if I could have just 3 instead of a whole row or half the pack!
Just quite stressed that I have no life without food as that pretty much revolves around everyone I know - friends and family both. I do feel quite alone especially in the past week where no one has come to visit me or better yet even took the time to call. It's as if know my lifestyle MUST be different, my past and those in it do not exist. So much for people who say they care about you!
It really sucks having hardly any friends especially at a time like this that want to up and disappear.
Kinda sad
Nikki
Nikki, do not despair! I do eat pizza - well, the toppings off of them; and I do have wings because they represent protein. Although it's probably a no - no - I will occasionally, as in once in a blue moon, have chips if they are offered. I chase them with some sort of cheese or bean dip because they have protein in them. I have a weakness for good guacamole dip - and I hear that guacamole is pretty good for ya, although the fat content can be a tad questionable, but again, I may have that once in a blue moon.
I did try to eat pizza like everyone else does, and the bread just didn't feel good going down. I actually felt sick from the bread. It doesn't matter anymore because the toppings are generally the best part of a pizza.
I tell my best friend who is scared of WLS to just not go down the soda and chips aisles. She says it works to avoid those because seeing them can be tempting.
Again, all hope is not lost. We just have to keep things in check. And fortunately, we will not get sick for eating the wrong foods in most cases, with the exception of bread, I just cannot handle bread in any shape or form, be it biscuit, pizza crust, roll, or regular slices of bread. It doesn't travel downwards in a good way, and sometimes, it'll come right back up, which is painful and relieving at the same time, weird huh? LOL.
I did try to eat pizza like everyone else does, and the bread just didn't feel good going down. I actually felt sick from the bread. It doesn't matter anymore because the toppings are generally the best part of a pizza.
I tell my best friend who is scared of WLS to just not go down the soda and chips aisles. She says it works to avoid those because seeing them can be tempting.
Again, all hope is not lost. We just have to keep things in check. And fortunately, we will not get sick for eating the wrong foods in most cases, with the exception of bread, I just cannot handle bread in any shape or form, be it biscuit, pizza crust, roll, or regular slices of bread. It doesn't travel downwards in a good way, and sometimes, it'll come right back up, which is painful and relieving at the same time, weird huh? LOL.
Candy I am hoping the same for post surgery time when I can explore what foods work and do hope the carbs are my worst enemy post surgery in different way than they have been my whole life.
Right now it's just knowing that EVERYTHING is NO becomes more and more desireable. If I see one more Wendy's or Chili's commercial I will scream!
In no way shape or form am I looking to push limits right now and sabatoge so early in. I just want to be able to have things I really like at some point.
Not helping that someone sent me Chocolate Covered Strawberries as get well...god bless her clueless heart! And that I have a pumpkin roll at work waiting for me that I ordered for a kids fundraiser...DOH! A small slice of that at Thanksgiving will be a pleasant treat but the rest of it well maybe I will have to have a bake sale and sell it by the slice :)
Im still hanging in there - just having my moments and really frustrated that I cannot find a tolerable shake post-surgery! I made one today and am forcing! I hate force feeding anything I don't like but I have to get in my protein.
Right now it's just knowing that EVERYTHING is NO becomes more and more desireable. If I see one more Wendy's or Chili's commercial I will scream!
In no way shape or form am I looking to push limits right now and sabatoge so early in. I just want to be able to have things I really like at some point.
Not helping that someone sent me Chocolate Covered Strawberries as get well...god bless her clueless heart! And that I have a pumpkin roll at work waiting for me that I ordered for a kids fundraiser...DOH! A small slice of that at Thanksgiving will be a pleasant treat but the rest of it well maybe I will have to have a bake sale and sell it by the slice :)
Im still hanging in there - just having my moments and really frustrated that I cannot find a tolerable shake post-surgery! I made one today and am forcing! I hate force feeding anything I don't like but I have to get in my protein.
Sorry to hear about the protein. I am a pretty happy camper with the EAS Advantage ready to drink protein shakes - especially the chocolate ones. I can also deal with the Atkins shakes. I found a good one at GNC - although customer service is horrible, that tastes like and has the same consistency as hot chocolate at room temperature. I for the life of me cannot recall the name of the mix, but it's in a burgundy and black package, and costs about 24 or 25 bucks. I didn't even feel a "sense" of protein in the drink. Okay, looked it up on GNC site- it's the GNC Pro Performance AMP Wheybolic Protein - it has a lot of protein in it for its suggested serving size of 12 ounces. I only do 8 ounces and two scoops of protein, and chug it down because I hear people saying we only absorb 20 or 30 grams of protein at a time, what's the sense in drinking 60 gs of protein if you can only take so many? It's very good and tasty in my opinion, and I could share some powder with ya if you're interested? I work in Millersville, and head to class in NE Baltimore on Tuesday evenings and Saturday mornings if you're in the vicinity?
Hi Nikki,
You know I'm NOT going to "sugar coat" things! First of all, you have to decide what's most important to you, those foods you shouldn't have or losing the weight. It's not like you can never have those foods, again, as you can, in moderation. Don't ever think you can't get sick from eating, as you CAN! Getting sick, especially with the band, is NOT something you want to do. I do eat PIZZA (nothing wrong with saying it, so don't feel guilty!) I'll have a salad, then 1 piece, and it's NOT something I do on a regular basis. Maybe you shouldn't even be thinking about those things, yet.
As for the protein shakes, I still haven't had a problem, with any of them! I'm funny about what I eat/drink, as I don't like odd tasting things. The other day, I got some Kefir, at the store, the lowfat, and it was strawberry/banana. I mixed a scoop of the strawberry protein powder in it, boy was that GOOD! When I was on liquids, I had eggdrop soup. You should be entering the pureed, soon. I really liked that. I have a "magic bullet", and would put regular food in it. I had spighetti and meatballs, all pureed. I had chicken breast, baked, skinless, added some chicken broth and it wasn't so dry. Mashed sweet potatoes. My favorite was cooked peas and carrots. I recently was around people that ate things that I like, but felt it wasn't in my best interest, so didn't eat any. Once again, it was my decision. I didn't just go through all this, to eat the wrong things. You can eat a cup of good things, or a cup of things NOT good for you. That's a decision you will always have to make. One thing that helps is to eat a salad with whatever salad dressing I want, everynight before eating the rest of my dinner. Yesterday, I craved something salty and crunchy. My weakness is bread products. I had my husband go to the store and get fat hard salty pretzels. I had 1, then had him hide the rest. If I ever get that crave, again, he'll let me have 1.
Nikki, I know this is all difficult for you, and I'm so sorry you're going through this. It WILL get better, but is something you'll always have to work on. WLS is NOT magic! But, YOU CAN DO THIS! Take care!
Ginger
You know I'm NOT going to "sugar coat" things! First of all, you have to decide what's most important to you, those foods you shouldn't have or losing the weight. It's not like you can never have those foods, again, as you can, in moderation. Don't ever think you can't get sick from eating, as you CAN! Getting sick, especially with the band, is NOT something you want to do. I do eat PIZZA (nothing wrong with saying it, so don't feel guilty!) I'll have a salad, then 1 piece, and it's NOT something I do on a regular basis. Maybe you shouldn't even be thinking about those things, yet.
As for the protein shakes, I still haven't had a problem, with any of them! I'm funny about what I eat/drink, as I don't like odd tasting things. The other day, I got some Kefir, at the store, the lowfat, and it was strawberry/banana. I mixed a scoop of the strawberry protein powder in it, boy was that GOOD! When I was on liquids, I had eggdrop soup. You should be entering the pureed, soon. I really liked that. I have a "magic bullet", and would put regular food in it. I had spighetti and meatballs, all pureed. I had chicken breast, baked, skinless, added some chicken broth and it wasn't so dry. Mashed sweet potatoes. My favorite was cooked peas and carrots. I recently was around people that ate things that I like, but felt it wasn't in my best interest, so didn't eat any. Once again, it was my decision. I didn't just go through all this, to eat the wrong things. You can eat a cup of good things, or a cup of things NOT good for you. That's a decision you will always have to make. One thing that helps is to eat a salad with whatever salad dressing I want, everynight before eating the rest of my dinner. Yesterday, I craved something salty and crunchy. My weakness is bread products. I had my husband go to the store and get fat hard salty pretzels. I had 1, then had him hide the rest. If I ever get that crave, again, he'll let me have 1.
Nikki, I know this is all difficult for you, and I'm so sorry you're going through this. It WILL get better, but is something you'll always have to work on. WLS is NOT magic! But, YOU CAN DO THIS! Take care!
Ginger
I see and feel your pain. Ending up at Giant and looking at fruit, seafood, is getting to me.
I went to Eggface.com for recipes. I'am not going on the slippery slope of pasta, ice creams, pizza or the SF sweets I hear about. I know that when my stoma acceptes those items, I will start cheating. I know what to eat, but putting 5-6 days worth of meals together is harder then 3 term papers in 2 weeks. Thank you Eggface. Good site
I went to Eggface.com for recipes. I'am not going on the slippery slope of pasta, ice creams, pizza or the SF sweets I hear about. I know that when my stoma acceptes those items, I will start cheating. I know what to eat, but putting 5-6 days worth of meals together is harder then 3 term papers in 2 weeks. Thank you Eggface. Good site
Nikki - I just want to say it does get easier. I remember my first days out, it seemed like the pantry was calling my name all the time. I wasn't hungry it was the head hunger and what I was used to doing. You do eventually break that habit, the more you resist the easier it gets. And sometimes we have to go to thereapy to deal with the other issues that got us where we are.
It's a mind of matter thing. I can recollect being in a bar a couple weeks ago watching the Ravens game, and I wasn't hungry, but I was "supposed" to be ordering food. I opened and closed the menu 5 times, I finally gave in and ordered something, I took 3 bites was full and though now why did I do that. We just have to fight those mental urges and channel/distract our mind someplace else.
Good luck, it will get easier.
It's a mind of matter thing. I can recollect being in a bar a couple weeks ago watching the Ravens game, and I wasn't hungry, but I was "supposed" to be ordering food. I opened and closed the menu 5 times, I finally gave in and ordered something, I took 3 bites was full and though now why did I do that. We just have to fight those mental urges and channel/distract our mind someplace else.
Good luck, it will get easier.
Christy
Nikki -
You've undergone a radical physical and mental change. Unfortunately, it takes a while for the mental to catch up with the physical. Sometimes, I don't think mine ever does.
Give yourself some time and start experimenting with recipes. I have to disagree with you, though - healthy food CAN be feel good food. Ask the girls who ate my yummy crustless quiches over the beach weekend - crab and sharp cheddar cheese, and spinach and mozzarella. Not to mention the yummy fresh fruit and protein muffins we had as go-alongs. Then, at night, we had to die for baked pumpkin ricotta - with whipped cream.
It's all about being willing to change and work with your program. You CAN do this, I promise. My weakness was always and remains still, sweets. It's hard, but nothing was as hard as being obese in a "normal" size world!!
We're here for you!
Hugs,
Tia
What they all said :-)
I eat pizza, wings and even chips (golly me, please don't let people know that) :-) Just not everyday and not as much as I used to. With the pizza, I will eat my salad first and then have a slice. I'll then pick off the meat topping off of my husband's plate for the protein lol
wings, you can egt them baked and they taste as good as the fried ones.
chips, when I could eat a whole bag of Utz salt & vinegar ones back then, now 5 chips and my craving is satisfied.
I do find that if I ignore the craving, then I end up doing somehting stupid like eating more than I should of the item I was craving. If I crave sweets, I take 1 piece of a hershey's kiss or equivalent. I can't stand the taste of splenda added stuff and other artificial sweeteners but one piece usually is good for me for weeks.
But, you know yourself bets. I have a friend who knows she has a very sweet tooth and if she starts, she will finish a bar of chocolate even though she'll be sicker than a dog afterwards. So, you have to know yourself and your habits best and then decide how to handle your cravings.
The ricotta bake that TIa mentioned was a very good alternative. It tasted unhealthy but was healthy. What could be better? :-)
No worries, slowly but surely, you will learn what works with your mind and your body.
I eat pizza, wings and even chips (golly me, please don't let people know that) :-) Just not everyday and not as much as I used to. With the pizza, I will eat my salad first and then have a slice. I'll then pick off the meat topping off of my husband's plate for the protein lol
wings, you can egt them baked and they taste as good as the fried ones.
chips, when I could eat a whole bag of Utz salt & vinegar ones back then, now 5 chips and my craving is satisfied.
I do find that if I ignore the craving, then I end up doing somehting stupid like eating more than I should of the item I was craving. If I crave sweets, I take 1 piece of a hershey's kiss or equivalent. I can't stand the taste of splenda added stuff and other artificial sweeteners but one piece usually is good for me for weeks.
But, you know yourself bets. I have a friend who knows she has a very sweet tooth and if she starts, she will finish a bar of chocolate even though she'll be sicker than a dog afterwards. So, you have to know yourself and your habits best and then decide how to handle your cravings.
The ricotta bake that TIa mentioned was a very good alternative. It tasted unhealthy but was healthy. What could be better? :-)
No worries, slowly but surely, you will learn what works with your mind and your body.
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