Reintroduction and Vent and Questions..lol

thanks everyone for their comments.  i definitely understand that the choice is a personal one.  what i am struggling with is that ive seen people here and in my own circle of friends and associates who've had wls.  there has been a change in their way of life that has been so positive.  i wonder what is wrong with me?  i was so clear before.  i look at my body and i do not like how i look.  right now, my knees are killing at every step i take.  so im at a point where im wonering do i take the surgery that will relieve the pain faster or do i endure it some more.  thanks for 'listening'