UPDATE ON NESSA/BRIAN

how funny it is.  brian's the one encouraging me.  I guess this was supposed to happen.  I asked him about switching doctors but he said  "i'm almost done let's stick it out".

I really don't want us to have different doctors and different rules.

and i'm sad.
and i'm crying
and i've got no joy

and i was pissed that everyone thought it so effing great that I had stayed the same.  BFD.

I don't think a single person in that office knew the depth of my despair.

Did you see Ranesa today?

no.  i'm actually done with Ranesa.

When you say done, do you mean by your own choice?  Or because that part of the program has been satisfied for you?   Because if you want to, you can still see her, you know.

Just a thought.

Right.

because her part of the program is done.   becasue her job as part of the program was to make sure i was ok with my eating.  AND I am.

that's what sucks.  I'm eating what i'm supposed to be eating. 

and yes i know i can see her.  barbie suggested it.  


there's no need.  nothing Ranesa says can change that I didn't lose weight.  and nothing Ranesa says can make me lose weight. 

why cant they get it.  if i could lose weight and keep it off I wouldn't need surgery. 

Nessa Im so sorry this is so frustrating for you. I just want to say though that I didnt lose weight on my preop diet either. I couldnt as hard as I tried. I wish I had some good advice for you but all I have to offer is a hug. I hope things work out.

that's what's so frustrating Mellie... I am not even preop.... he wont' submit to insurance until I lose something.

it's insane. 

That is frustrating. Are you absolutely set on going with this doc? There are a lot out there that are not as strict about this.

yeah I think we are pretty committed here.   i want the same surgeon and brian and he's only 6 pounds and a couple of tests away....

Have Brian get his surgery then YOU change doctors.......there are many great ones out here.