When did you know the moment was right????

Thanks Angie I have had trouble with my period for years and am now getting ready to have a D&C, hysterscope and endometrial biopsy for the 3rd time. They say I have hyperplasia and have to keep an eye on it so it dosent turn into cancer.. I worry about this so much. They also gave me the megase but I was told thats a cancer drug and this scared me to death...I appreciate your honesty and you have done well.. Congrats..

 

                                                                      Julie

My PCP nearly had a heart attack over the megase.  It is used in AIDS patients mostly now a days, to help them maintain and gain weight!

Angie OMG thats all we need is to gain more weight... Are they crazy???

                                                                                         Julie

Exactly... That is what I get for going to a semi retired (now totally retired) ob/gyn because he was the first one with an open appt!!  AND I wanted to see someone for SOMETHING before a trip - and only had 3 weeks prep time!

Julie I think I understand where you are coming from. Like you and Tia Im one of the healthiest fat people I know. I think when you are healthy you think about haivng surgery and you think you might make yourself sick with this or what if something goes wrong. At least for me that's what I was feeling when I first started thinking about WLS. But here's the thing, as healthy as I am now, Im lucky. I might not always be.

For me the moment I decided I was going for it was arfter doing a lot of research and talkgin to a lot of people who had it done. I have become more and more uncomfortable feeling and just decided ive had enough. I want my life back. I want my kids to have a mom they can look up to. One that can do things with them. I want my husband to have a wife he can be proud of (he already is and brags on me way too much), but i want to look good for him and be able to enjoy him more. mostly though, i just want to be comfortable in my skin and i want to be thin for once in my life. ive lived 42 years overweight and now its my turn to be thin.

Tia and the others are right though, if you can't decide if it's for you then it might not be at tthis time. I actually thought about it and then let it go for a year or so for the same reason. I couldnt make up my mind so i knew it was the wrong time. once i decided im doing it regardless i started researching and decided with lap-band.

Mellie, I am there too.. I just sometimes feel like I am doubting myself. I want to be thin and have my life back. I miss the old me and have had people ask where is the old Julie... That hurts so bad and so deep... I am to healthy the doc always says how can your cholesrtol be under 50 they are amazed and then the blood sugar is good too. I feel like I am playing a game with myself and dont know when my health luck will run out...I hope you can understand that...Thanks so much...

 

                                                                                    Julie

At my birthday party at P.F. Chang's 2007, when I idn't want any photos of me taken. There were a couple and I was so depressed at seeing them. I couldn't believe what was clearly in the photo. And, I was very unhappy with my sex life. Well TMI, but I never wanted to ahev any becuase I thought I looked disgusting naked. When it started affecting my self esteem and my marital happiness, I decided it was time.

I was a "healthy" obese person until I hit  my 42 birthday;
Then within a couple weeks I was put on bloodpressure, diabetes, and thyroid
medicine- soon followed by anti-depressents.  at that point it still took
me a year or so to make the initial appointment with DVR. 

My father had been telling me for years that my weight would eventually catch up
with me -- well it did.  After my initial counsult I was gung ho- but insurance
and DVR insisted on six months weight loss appointments - so it was
actually closer to 8 months before my surgury date.

Its a difficult decision but I chose LIFE.  Funny that was a sermon topic a few weeks
ago and it so hit home that I emailed the minister about it . 

hey Julie,
i have not had surgery yet but in the process. (Hopefully in the fall).I think my wake up moment was when i went to the doctor to get refills on my meds and of course they weigh you first and i was at 265. i cried all the way home. For a few years i have cringed when my husband would touch me because i felt too fat to be loved by him no matter what he said as encouragement to me. It has hurt our marriage and i have taken away time from the kids cause i am just too tired to play with them. i have pretty much always been heavy but i played sports and could run. After i had my girls though i just gained and gained. i cant even collect the mail at the end of my driveway without having to take a break when i get back to the house. My weight is hurting my emotionally and physically and since i cant seem to control it myself or with just my support group around me i need more help. I needed to make this decision for me but also for the health of all my family. I want to be the way i was and i believe this will be the way i can obtain that. I have done a lot of praying and i am finally at peace with my decision. I hope that you have your support group at home as well and you can always talk to these wonderful people here they will always tell you the truth :)
amber

by the way i am still scared but not as scared as i am to stay the way i am right now!