Give me strength!!

I'm going to my PCP tommorrow to start my pre-op six month monitored diet required by my insurance.
I haven't weighed myself in four years, and at that time I was 290, I imagine I'm near or over 400 now.
I know I'm going to break down on the spot when I hear the number tomorrow, and go home and want to EAT!
UGH.

Hello and welcome to the Md forum. 
I know that tomorrow will be a little hard for you but think of it this way.  Be PROUD because you have taken a very important step. You are taken control of your of life and health.  This is the begininning of this wonderful weight loss journey.

Wishing you all the best and please know that we are here for you.
Drink some hot tea and think of how wonderful it will be for you the next few months.

Yes, tomorrow is going to be hard. But there are so many positives about this moment that are a little difficult to see right now.

You are taking a positive action by seeing your PCP to make a better life for yourself. It takes a lot of courage to make the decision that WLS is right for you. This appointment is an important  one to help you achieve your goal.

The number on the scale is just a number, a physical thing. It is not who you, a person is inside. It is a stake in the ground. You are saying ENOUGH! Later on down the road, after you have had your surgery and achieved WLS success, you will back proudly at this number and how far you have come.

Please know that I and the other participants on this board who are at all stages of the WLS journey are here for you. Feel free to call on us at any time.

Debbie

Great minds think alike Cira! I did not see your message before I pushed the button on mine!!! LOL!

Aw..thanks. This is a wonderful board with so much support. I've received more encouragement here from "strangers",  than in real life with family.

:)

I know it's a step in the right direction, but it's going to be hard hearing that number.

((((Hugs)))))  Oh dear, I can feel your pain through your words. But don't be so hard on yourself. Be HONEST, and remember every meal is a new chance and a new choice. You can't change the past, only the choices you will make from here on out. We are here for you. The 6 months will go fast. Just remember to do everything that your insurance co. requires.
And you have taken the biggest step of all!!! You should be proud of that.

My Pastor gave me a few wonderful words.
" Only the truth makes free" and "Better is the end of something than the beginning thereof"
Facing the problem is the biggest help for you, following through is the hardest, but the most worthwhile.

Thank you. Yes, I'm always so hard on myself. I need to remember that I'm worth it, and saving my life and health is worth it.

I'm getting ready to leave in 30 minutes and came here to read everyone's words once again, just to give me some inspiration.

:)

You are taking the first step in the right direction!  You'll do GREAT and congratulations!!!

Many of us, myself included, have been exactly where you are.  It takes a great deal of courage to take that first step, so please take pride in the fact that you are doing this.

Good luck, keep us posted and by all means, don't be a stranger.  In addition to the information that you can find on here, you WON'T find a better bunch of friends!!

Hugs,

Tia

UPDATE!!

I'm back from the doctor, and I didn't pass out when I heard my weight, so I consider it a good visit.
lol
While I was sitting in the infamous little room where you wait for the doctor, I was thinking of the encouraging words I read in this thread. It really kept me from jumping off the table and leaving.

I did gain almost 100 pounds over the last few years....not shocked.
I'm 380 LBS.
*sighs*
Long road ahead, but I took the first step today.